Quiet Transformation

Wow.

This blog post is incredibly over-due. Since the last time I wrote to you about the wonders of being in KC Volard's world, I haven't left it. In fact, I've delved deeper and deeper in the past year.

Reading back through the post I wrote a year ago, I realize now how much progress I have made. Many times I've heard people say that after some of the programs I've been through in KC's world in the past year that they were “no longer the person” that they had been before the programs. I never really resonated with that statement, because I've always been me. I continue to have some of the same struggles, but on a different scale. Reading back through the post I wrote about the 22 Day Challenge... I finally get it. I don't even remember feeling quite so “mentally damaged” last year that it was a struggle to get through 22 days of Kundalini.

What I do remember?

As She Rises Live 2024:

Incredible moments of self-discovery and release through full-out sobbing. Dancing around the conference room in a conga line and laughing along with every person there (not only women-identifying souls). Feeling a sense of belonging, in all of my weirdness. Even when I didn't do what everyone else was doing. Even when I arrived late to the dance party and quietly sat down for the calming opening ritual. Even when I left early to seek out a local speakeasy, where I left chatting with another woman my age who considered coming with me.

Meeting new friends! One woman, whom I never knew beforehand, who was my partner for an activity at the conference – and then we all were released for dinnertime, and I went to check out a local Halloween store that was open in the middle of September. That same woman, separately from me, also happened to be wandering the same store! We began chatting and then had to be told the store was closing for the night, so we journeyed together through the city streets and found a place to share a meal. Later that weekend, we began a creative exchange that helped to center me in my newfound confidence and self-identity as a confident, bold woman.

Before As She Rises Live, I could not have envisioned myself as any kind of leader. I always used to say “I'm better at following”, and I didn't just mean when it came to dancing. Even though I'd already committed to being part of the leadership for a retreat in Scotland later that year, I was hesitant and uncertain of my choice - of whether I belonged among those other leaders.

Yet, at least when it comes to dancing, I've been willing to lead when I was helping someone else learn or taking my turn so someone else could experience following. I've always stepped up when I felt it was absolutely necessary. By the end of the As She Rises Live conference, I was already contemplating not only a brand elevation, but whether I could turn that into its own kind of movement.

Trifecta Alchemy Certification (TAC):

Later that same year, I signed up for this certification course taught by KC. In fact, I'd already been desiring to join before I attended the ASR “retreat” or “business conference”, but I finally felt I had the right funds in place when October hit. Even though I experienced some financial difficulties in the following months, I will never believe that joining TAC when I did was a mistake – it was absolutely aligned for me to join in the Fall 2024 Cohort. As I mentioned in the 22 Days of Kundalini post, my major life decisions are meant to come from a gut pull or expansion in the moment – and following that pulse has been one of the best things I've done for myself.

When I joined, I merely wanted the quantities of knowledge and energetic healing I knew I would learn for my own sake. At most, I thought the other people I might help would be my family or close friends.

I will say, I did struggle to keep the commitment of a full 2.5 hour practice of Kundalini and breathwork and chanting for 40 Days straight (and not at convenient times of day, for the most part). Yet, comparing it to how I struggled just last summer to do 3-11 minutes of one kriya for 22 Days in a row, I am incredibly impressed with the progress that I had already made.

Having completed the full 40 days, I can hardly go even one full day without doing at least 3 minutes of Kundalini – whether I do one kriya or spend at least a half hour centering and grounding myself in my body.

However, unlike how I felt about it last year, doing the full 2.5 hour practice taught me how to integrate my spiritual connection in with the physical integration of mindset work.

Many people have told KC that the chanting feels uncomfortable for them. Many people don't have the same wholesome relationship to their childhood faith, connected to the religion impressed upon them by parents, family, or society. Many people in the trauma-informed circles that I fall into have negative connections to these childhood religious experiences.

Not so for me. I have always had a deep connection to my faith – even when I associated it with the Church that I was raised to attend. Yet, some of the ritual practices of that organized religion, were some of the ones that helped me feel my faith the most. Singing. Prayer as mantra in a group setting. Hymns. Kneeling. The wood or stone of the buildings themselves. I still carry some of the tenants of that organized religion with me, but only the ones that still resonate within every fiber of my being. The music. The stories. The community connection. The love. What it means to love every member of a community – despite different ideas on how it should be run, despite the way others are so guided by their disempowered emotions and belief systems.

Even though I know now that many of those beautifully constructed buildings were built on other religions' sacred sites in an attempt to erase those cultures and their beliefs, I can still feel the magnificent and beautiful power of the Divine. No matter what organized religion does, it cannot erase the connection I feel to the spiritual realms – whether you consider that simply the connection between all the souls present on Earth, whether you believe in one God or in many gods and goddesses (or any other fae creatures, Angels, ancestors, ghosts, etc), it or they are here. All around us – it is all about how you feel the connection. All about how I feel the connection.

For me, Kundalini yoga is a tool to come back into my body, but it is also a meditative experience that gives me the space to think about my connection with the Divine, to pray in gratitude or for guidance. This is something I learned by participating in Trifecta Alchemy Certification, because without 40 Days of spending 2.5 hours focusing on being in tune with my body and energy, I may never have realized how much I love (and had been missing) spending time connecting spiritually to God.

I remember that once I attended a Mass at an Episcopalian church and the Mass itself was actually canceled because the (pastor?) was sick, but the man at the head of the space led us in prayer – because he said his wife spends an hour every morning in prayer, with the Divine, and that's really the intention of “attending Mass once a week” being so important. The truth is, God just wants an hour of our time, at least once a week. Doesn't that make sense? Any relationship takes work – a little time and energy investment, even if it doesn't look the same for everyone.

When I began the certification program (TAC), I intended only to use what I learned for myself and my small circle of friends. Adding holistic health work to my own business was never part of the plan. As I continued to heal through learning tools like E3 and EFT and past life regressions and therapeutic timeline exploration and how to create my own theta meditations, as I continued to practice these and have them practiced on me with classmates, I came to the understanding that I could not abstain from sharing this work with a wider circle of people than myself and my main circle of friends.

It's too juicy, too helpful. I would be selfish to keep these to myself. It would be a waste of all I've learned, of all the healing I've gone through, to hoard my knowledge.

I also never imagined I would consciously see how many people in the world are in need of this work – and then my home nation began to unravel. All the rights so hard won over the past 100 years have come back under attack, among newer issues. Globally, there are a variety of other battles being fought, people being harmed, but I don't know if these are simply more visible now than they have been in the past decades or if they are truly new. The saddest part, is that the ones most in need of some trauma-informed energetic work or actual Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT), are the ones who will never seek out that kind of work. The ones who don't understand the science behind it and therefore don't believe it exists or could help them, let alone others.

Forcing people to find the right path is not my job, nor the job of anyone else. My part to play is to use my voice when I can lift it in activism. My job is to help those who are ready for this work – those who want my guidance in order to heal themselves. This is the kind of leadership I am stepping into, as well as building for future generations.

Knowing the power of nervous system regulation work, energetic healing work, being able to hold space through trauma-informed understanding – facilitation of self-compassion through changing the stories we tell ourselves, the stories we tell others – these fill my heart with joy. So I did end up adding this to my business. Language is truly at the heart of everything I do, whether I'm helping a soul understand the stories needing to be reframed in their mind, heart, and body, or I'm helping an entrepreneur reweave the stories in their content.

The sisterhood and connections I've made through joining TAC when I did will always be a part of my soul. Not only does working with these healers and coaches help me understand myself, it helps me know that I am not alone when I am struggling. If I struggle in life or in my business, I have people to share with and support me – and people who can receive support from me when they struggle. Not that I don't have other supportive friendships and communities, indeed my Lendrick soul-family has done more for me than words can adequately express, as well as my friends closer to home, but the people I met through TAC have similar business struggles to mine. They've been where I am or are currently in a similar boat, and they now know the same tools I do, so their suggestions are more structurally and strategically helpful. Plus, there's nothing wrong with having my soul-family continue to grow!

Affiliate Program & Catalyst Membership:

Last summer, through being an Affiliate of KC's courses, I won some free money towards one of her programs of my choosing (she calls this KC Cash – cute, right?!). I chose to put it towards a year's worth of her monthly membership program for business coaching and mentorship. This was an excellent choice.

Being a part of KC Volard's Catalyst Membership, even for just a year, was incredibly inspirational. She delivers so much valuable content throughout every month, as well as access to a library of recorded classes and trainings. I cannot even begin to fathom all of the information I have absorbed in the past year, whether it had to do with sales and strategy to mindset shifts or her feedback on specific business-related questions.

There, again, exists an incredible community of people working toward improving their lives and businesses and sharing those moments of both heartbreak and celebration together. While this may seem just a digital community, it is incredibly deep. Many of us will be bringing this community out of the digital world and into reality when we meet in person at this year's As She Rises Live conference in Vancouver.

Partnership Program:

This year, KC gave her Affiliates the chance to dive even deeper by becoming a PARTNER of the As She Rises Live 2025 event – and I'm in!

KC has offered so much valuable content just for the Partnership Program alone – adding to all the business information and mentorship and her own experiences that she doles out on her social media and in her membership.

Plus, being a Partner gave me the chance to be interviewed by Ashley M. Dias, who is part of the team building As She Rises Live! I now have a professional interview under my belt, where I got to talk about both my personal experiences with As She Rises Live and Trifecta Alchemy Certification, but also about my own business! What?! I'm clearly still in shock – and experiencing profound joy and gratitude.

Another kind of leadership that I never thought I would express or claim for myself. Perhaps, another step toward the kind of leadership I'm working to build in my communities for a New Earth that is full of wonder and compassion without all the hate and fear.

My motto these days is: Words Have Power.

~ Come with me, and you'll be... ~

For most of us that will evoke a certain sentiment, the face of Gene Wilder, and the soft and trailing music that leads towards lovely dreams and illusions. See what I mean?

Join me at As She Rises Live 2025! It will be so fun to hug you in person and to introduce you into this fabulous and magical world of wonders that we call a business conference (more like a business festival – party central!).

BONUS: The first 5 people to use my affiliate/partner link to buy their tickets for the event will get to dine out with me on Saturday evening (October 18th) in Vancouver city... on MY dime. That's right: I'll pay for your dinner (and drinks with dinner) AND you get to sit and chat with me until it's time to go get ready for the Higher Self party. Woohoo!

If you feel that pull, that internal tug to meet me in Vancouver: click on this link (and stay on the page until the process is through, or there may be technical difficulties). I can't wait to see you there!

All this to say that – I have transformed. I am not the same woman I was even 1 year ago today. I was resilient then, but now I understand that I am resilient. I knew I had more confidence after As She Rises Live ended last year, but to see the way I've grown by looking back on who I was, still takes my breath away.