Misunderstood Mishy

I’m expressive. That’s not new to people who know me, and it quickly becomes known to people who don’t.

I’m not one of those people who believes in holding everything in. We’re going to kill ourselves trying to be politically correct, amicable, trying not to offend people and worrying about being considered combative.

Sometimes things are a fight. You have to fight for your respect, your dignity, and you definitely have to defend yourself. However, I think me defending myself against people who hurt me, betray me, try to treat me any type of way, etc. may be offputting to some people. If I don’t defend myself, who’s going to do it?

Don’t get me wrong; I’m not always on the defense. Lately, I have been finding myself trying to explain who I am to people continuously, and I’m getting kind of tired of it.

It’s people who spend more time trying to worry about something that I’m saying and what platform I’m using to say it on, but you’re not looking at what I’m saying. You’re not considering how I feel. You are devoted to misunderstanding me!

Honestly, I’m going to have to say this frankly; that is your cross to bear, and not mine!

You’re not considering what makes me say the things I say on the platform. 

Maybe I feel, that I don’t have anybody to talk to. 

Honestly, a lot of days I don’t. I feel like I’m a burden when I express myself about something that has hurt me, someone who I feel isn’t treating me right, someone who I have an issue with because of how they treated me, etc.

I’m not resigning to be miserable for anybody. Even those closest to me.I’m not resigning to be miserable for anybody. l’ll add to that by saying, I’m not! Even if you thought I was, have you checked on me or have you chastised me?

I’m not making excuses for bad behavior, I’m not making it seem like there’s nothing I need to change in my life, I’m not making it seem like I’m perfect and everybody else is the problem either. I’m well aware that I have flaws. I’m working on those flaws. That doesn’t mean that in the meantime, I’m not a human being! 

I think that some days my tough exterior doesn’t leave room for people to see my softer insides. I think they think that I made of stone through and through. 

I’m not.

I have a lot of days that I am weak, I have a lot of days that I am sad, I have a lot of days that I am lost, I have a lot of days that I am anxious and I’m dealing with a lot of emotions that I don’t speak on. 

Sometimes, it’s good to look deeper into something that somebody is going through versus how you feel they should act, what you feel what they should do and what you feel is inappropriate or not.

Look past yourself! 

Don’t try to analyze me and you don’t even really see me!

I think what makes me seem so bitter or so angry is that I have a Lotta love to give and I have this huge heart and for somebody to take advantage of that or walk all over that, that really hurts.

I’m working on me, like I said. I’m making changes. 

So that’s gonna require a lot of soul-searching, a lot of self reflection, and likely, a lot of isolation. 

It’s not about you. 

If you’re prepared to take this personally, don’t.

Remember, I have to take care of me first because nobody else is going to do it. How I work through those issues, is how I work through those issues. You’re going to have to except how I do that, or you’re not. It doesn’t mean that I don’t love you, it doesn’t mean I don’t think you love me, I think you’re misunderstanding me, and I could be possibly misunderstanding you.

That’s ok too.

We are all flawed, beautiful creatures.

The universe embraced us all from conception.

I am here just like you are.

Our experiences, even though we have a lot in common, I’m never going to be the exact same.

That’s ok too!i’m like most people; I want to love and be loved. Even though that’s not an easy task, it’s possible, it’s doable, it’s attainable. 

I just asked that we judge less and understand more. I don’t ask for much, but that is definitely one of the things I ask for.

I hope this helps and I hope it gives a little bit more understanding of who I am. I’ve always been an open book. If you wanna know something about me, talk to me. 

Ask me.

I’m outta here cuz I got some things to focus on like, manifesting, getting back to me, etc., so I’m kinda busy.

I end this with love ❤️ 💕 💗 

Mishy