Live in your true state

It’s sometimes so difficult to believe in the universe.

Especially when this is not broadcasted, you don’t learn this in schools this isn’t on the news, if this is something that you never come across in your life then you will live a life in not enough state. If I told you, you could have everything! Would you believe me?

My awakening was so much more then the abuse I had faced for so long. It was going way back through the vision of my younger self and accepting that everything in my life was attracted to me. I had self consciously created this world I lived in. A man once said give me a child whom is 7 and I will tell you their future.

Who you are, what you see, what you learn as a child is who you become as an adult. Despite all the abuse that I had faced from my daughters father my heart just hurt for him, as I had come from a similar traumatic childhood. Many of you will think I’m crazy and I could never condone someone to become as angry as I have seen but it was just excruciatingly sad to see someone I cared about trapped inside themselves. Completely coded to be a monster but I knew that somewhere deep down was the man that I adored and I felt it was my responsibility to release him. But I learnt to realise that some people cannot be saved no matter how much you try and by trying to save them you’re actually abandoning yourself. And I can only blame this on being a Libra, we are kind and will basically do absolutely anything for anyone. We are givers, pleasers, extremely loyal.

I had to accept that I couldn’t be with the man that I loved because he simply couldn’t love me the way I needed to be. (And in fact the same day I wrote some of this he cheated on me! So it just goes to show no matter how you love someone love just isn’t enough sometimes)

The only thing that sucked at the time was I had just given birth to the most perfect little girl. This was my third daughter I never thought I would have any more but then I fell head over heels in love and my little miracle was born weighing 5 lb 5. As soon as this tiny little bundle of joy came into my life things changed. I think I realised that this third little girl was god giving me a chance to get it right! To put them 1st to become who I was always born to be. Realising deeply in my soul that everything that happened in my life was leading me to this crossroad.

And every relationship that had failed was simply because I knew no different I wasn’t worthy of myself. As I said earlier about abandonment it was always my biggest fear but for the 27 years that I was petrified of being abandoned I was abandoning myself, wasn’t focusing on any dream apart from trying to love another person. Trying so desperately to seek the life I never had as a child!

Some stability A loving father, husband. A man who would never cheat and betray me.

It all starts in the mind, I have had many signs in my life to prove the law of attraction works. If you can imagine your life as just a energy with your body being the host, listen to your inner voice, if your inner voice is a narcissist then look around you becuase you have a problem

Be kind to yourself, affirm everyday all the things you want to be. Have gratitude for all thing present things, transition was extremely hard for me as I had nothing to be greatful for ( so I thought) when I had what some people would give their life’s for. I had three daughters who all along gave me the love I needed.

And well the rest is for you to read.... but I can honestly say I had 9 life’s. I lost 8 and now I’m living everyday in my highest vibration. My inner voice is on fire!

My tips to you would be to stop what your doing RIGHT now and meditate! What do you want to be in your wildest of dreams and take it into action NOW don’t waste another second being unhappy.

Anyone who’s ever done you wrong. Simply pray for their happiness and focus on yourself.