Let Go

Where do I begin. I have an amazing story to tell. Its about getting unstuck. The song I have been obsessed with these past few days which has prompted me to enter this contest is b urn the ships by For King and Country. I have never related to a song like I do this one, so I believe many will too relate. Its been a long long time, staying stuck in my past. It happened in October of 2007. Three months later it was the beginning of many distressed emotions.

Fear worry and anxiety have been my familiar, not knowing why I have felt stuck in life has been a journey in itself. To me in 2007 the loss of my beloved pets Cheyanne and Sheena my Yorkshire terriers left me confused, fearful and in a state of no peace. It was sudden and I most likely have blamed myself. unforgiveness. my faith was shaken, my health declined and all my fears rose up in me. to stay. to torment me. to leave me in doubt. its been a struggle. its been possibly a familiar struggle to many when we get stuck in the past, and stay in the emotions of the past that leave us in hoplessness. and maybe also in despair and wondering the way out. the way out of ourselves perhaps. where is the light? how do I see now when its dark because I lost hope in a future because i got stuck in the past? I expected bad things to happen (no future) for the last 12 years because of the loss of my pets. I dont want to stay stuck there. So burn the ships speaks of finding hope again. Finding a way into a future that is looked at as something wonderful instead of dreadful? I believe we overcome our past hurts and emotions tied to the past by moving forward, not looking back. Stepping into a new day is what it takes to forgive ourselves. We can rise up from the ashes of our lives and have a new beginning into a future that is waiting for us to let go. Like the song says we can dance upon our heartache, if we find the strength that is already in us.

I have learned it takes faith to see when you are in the dark. It takes faith to believe you can still soar into new heights. releasing the past is freedom. Freedom to live once again. to find your breath, to breath again. Fear is debilitating. It steals your peace and joy. It may seem like a struggle to go on. Its time to let go! time to move forward! leave your past behind. Burn the ships! Dont get stuck! Embrace and take hold of the future, dont forget about it. Embrace it! Learning to love yourself enough to forgive yourself puts you on a new path. I'm learning to look at life in a whole new way. Learning to become a positive person in the midst of anguish and pain. I am amazed at how challenging it is to let go. I finally understand I couldnt see my future because I was stuck. or I was stuck because I couldnt see my future. I couldnt move forward, like being paralyzed. An example is driving your car and you might get stuck in a ditch you are no longer moving forward. to me its a learning process and a journey to find myself. to become more than I feel. to be able to move beyond my feelings. to be greater than them. The song resonates with me because I am ready. Ready for a new beginning finally. Move into a new day, a new way out of old behaviors. patterns and emotions. Its time for the new me to begin again. We are meant to soar. To find our wings and fly.

I hope this story inspires you. The above pic is Jasmine who was 12 years old when she passed last june. She was my last yorkie (yorkshire terrier) i had from 2007.