I AM MY OWN CREATION

You ever wonder what its like to feel emmm...different?Of course you have who doesnt right. but i mean different, different. like its a piece of you missing or a whole of you. Well Ive always known i was different and the best way to express who I am is through art. Your body is a blank canvas, you create the art that you live. The tattoos that i will be writng about will be 1 of my most recent tattoos. "MOYOCOYTZIN"

Im a 24 year old black african american lesbian woman. I was born and raised in terror; the southside of chicago. Where some of us survive, some of us thrive, and others die. To me this word, this art was more than itself. it spoke to me in away not even life was able too. Growing up i was around violence more than love and thats all i ever wanted was love, peace, and serenity. Also with me being a lesbian wasnt the easiest for me. Theres hate everywhere you go; but being gay or lesbian always leads to some type of substance abuse or just abuse in genreal. When I turned 18 i started trying new things drugs, alcohol, rebel shit. When i turned 22 drugs were the root of my life, i started going down hill instantly. I didnt know who I was. I was in a terrible relationship that left me broken not even knowing how depressed i was. March of 2020 i got sick from covid. All i had was my thoughts at that point. No money No job. just me and my mom. especailly once my grandma passed away from breast cancer. I decided that i wanted a change for myself. So I decided to focus on my sobriety and my future. When I decided to get this tattoo I knew I was becoming "She". Creating selfworth i didnt know i had.

Theres was a purpose for me being here on earth. I knew I was greater than the image i was giving off. My purpose is to teach, to love, to forgive, to give out that postive energy to others who suffer similar to me. Letting others know they are not alone. What "MOYOCOYTZIN" means is "She Who Creates Herself" or Gift of God" I am more at peace with myself than ive ever been.

I have been diagnosed with bipolar depression as well as i was hospitilized. I did 4 months of out patient therapy. ive been suffereing with mental health since i was 10 no one noticed until i was older. So I dealt with alot over the pass few years. Not wanting to seek help or feeling like i didnt need help when i did. I am coming out of a break through I never thought i would even go through and being able to express that through tattoos art of the human body is beautiful to me. We are our only enemy. We create what we are and who we are. I am "SHE WHO CREATES HERSELF".

Being able to express myself, teach and learn from myself. Thats what this tattoo means to me. not just a needle and ink to the skin to look cool; but every tattoo has a story behind it and this one means the most becuase through all the pain the trauma i am the one to create who i am. im the one to show myself selfless love. She is Me & I Am She. Not everyone comes out of a break through but i did. Everyday this tattoo reminds me of what i came out of