Good morning

It’s 7:15 am in NYC 2020. I still here the crickets with the faint sounds of cars passing through. One about 5 minutes after another. Harlem wakes up a little slower than Brooklyn. But I hear the crickets. I love it! But does the sound of crickets ever stop or does the word just get to loud; so that we never hear them. Appreciating the things that you don’t have to worry about. Yeah, sure.. things make you mad, sad, emotionally moved to points you can’t get explain. The random moments you battle. Who when’s the fight? Who loses? WHAT IS THE COST OF THERE VICTORY?! And does it change when they die? I know, know what your thinking; all of this over some damn 🦗. No but I do like the peace it gives me when I am up all alone. Checking on my children as they dream of their most wonderful dreams. Have you ever experienced your child so afraid from a dream that they woke up really crying and asking for help? And for that moment you feel a brief feeling of hurt and what if’s. And this isn’t for everyone but that moment when you felt like when it came to it you couldn’t protect them. Now, why is this sad? When you count your blessings and you have complete understanding that nothing is ever REALLY under your control. That you and everyone around you has been chosen to travel on the same or different path; that will will reveal the end and the beginning. But then is still not sad? No, it’s absolutely sad. These feelings are real. They were given to us in the beginning to live and chose love, and for the rest death. Is that so bad? Are we now to say it’s okay to die and never had loved. Now, I know what you are thinking, all of this for some damn crickets 🦗?! No but realize; when you hear a crickets chirp, it’s only during the times that the world is hibernating. When the world appears to be dead and cold. The crickets remind you that their is still life. Don’t forget about the sun. The sun reminds you that their are always better days.

The sun reminds you to appreciate the moments you didn’t notice you needed the most. You ever walked down a block and it’s cold cold outside. And the sun shine strong on to you face and neck. And for a moment you were appreciating life again. Okay maybe a little dramatic but every step you took was I leading you towards the direction of the sun. The next square block with a sun patch. And dear anyone block your sun from warming up your day. From giving you that next moment... you would be so angry but keep on walking. Lml!! Oh boy!! If you think I’m nuts it’s okay, I got use to that. But I would love to hear some new thoughts.

Oh right! The dream. She jumps up out of sleep afraid and crying. And she says..” mommy I love you I didn’t want you to die!” So you know even at this moment, I cried again. How selfish of me to think I lived? That she too couldn’t feel the same exact way I felt but lived to see it. We all have crazy dreams, and yes I know they aren’t real, but some are so to real events. Some come from phobias. And many other sources, for many reasons and wonders. But you felt it. Speak out loud, share your thoughts and always protect your peace and mental health. I am no doctor, but I’ve come along way. Join me! #support @AaliyahBoutique #CashApp