Every step of the way

It has been a long ride so far...

There are no words enough to describe this path, while some might call it a winding road, others will call it a difficult path, without forgetting those who call it an unpredictable path. And while I woundn't agree any less with them, I also wont forget those who see it as a learning road, a healing journey and a procress that lead to a greater outcome.

While others had their own definition of how best to describe my life, it was my responsibility to either agree or disagree with them. And while searching for my own definition, I find myself agreeing with everyone else except myself...

What do I really think of my life?

It was a question I couldn't find an answer while sitting in my comfort zone and definitely not an exam paper I had to study for but a question that desperately needed an answer. I then found the answer in the most unexpected way, and this answer gives me a definition that best defines my life.

As the sun rose, I decided that my body needed some sort of movement to increase my blood circulation. With this in mind, I went jogging which is something I hadn't done in a long time. While jogging, my muscles were stretching. My thighs began to hurt and my breath felt suffocated. I wanted to stop but I had a goal of where my stopping point should be...

I was hurting and my stopping point was far away, I couldn't go any further. So I saw a peaceful place, green and beautiful and I knew I needed to stop. I stopped but I wasn't sure if I wanted to continue jogging. I wanted to quit and walk back home but after gaining my strength and heart rate slowed down I continued to jog. I had a goal and knew why I needed to reach that goal and although there were many times I stopped to regain my strength and to loosen the pain, that didnt stop me until I reached my goal.

Although I couldn't find a perfect definition to describe my life, my jogging experience helped me in defining it.

So how do I define my life?

I view my life as my jogging experience. I know where I want to be in life and what I want to achieve without forgetting the type of influence I want to have on people and as much as I have this idea of how I want my life to be, that doesn't not stop any hurt, disappointment, pain, neglect or rejection along the way.

I get exhausted and unmotivated at every path of my life and the willingness to give up arises. I want to stop and sometimes or maybe most of the times I do stop and then I look at how far I have come and how far I want to go. And maybe get overwhelmed and take two, three steps back...

The true is that life isn't like jogging. I don't always see a beautiful, peaceful green spot to stop and take rest or perhaps to regain strength. This is what I see, in every step of the way, when I'm tired and exhausted, when I am unable to go any further and want to stop. I see a beautiful, peaceful green spot in a form of a human...

Some of them are permanent while others are like a breeze. And this is the reason why I never give up because I allow myself to stop when it needed.

Remember to take a break when it needed, to rest when you can't go any further but while resting, make sure to find a perfect, peaceful green spot to ensure that you do not only rest but also gain the energy needed to continue the race.