Day One: Does it count if I took a nap?

Today was the official start of my 30 day challenge. I awoke at 6:30 AM and surprisingly really enjoyed it. It was still dark outside and my heavy eyes begged for the opportunity for five more minutes. However, I'm the boss of my own body and I wanted to get up at 6:30 AM so that's what I did and began my day.

It felt weird making my bed while it was still dark outside but I figured if I made my bed I wouldn't find myself trying as hard to go back to bed. Which happened to ultimately work out. As I went about my checklist, I watched the sunshine say good morning as it shown through my window, it lit up my dark room and gave it some life. The golden sun rays alone made me grateful to have woken up so early. I decided to take a picture and capture the morning light. I took a big hit of weed before I meditated this morning and found myself occupied in my head for all 10 minutes. My mind was messy. I thought about how I wanted the challenge to go and why I was doing it. I thought about the things that hold me back in life and why I want to overcome them. I felt compelled to think about the things that hurt me and to open up a can of worms but I refrained because my emotional state in the AM wasn't ready for that. Meditation in the morning always puts me in a good head space, no matter what I think about I'm able to calm myself and rationalize in my head. I used to never take the time to just think, and now I've got a lot of thinking to do.

One of the things on my list is to read, and I wanted to read something new but didn't think my brain could focus on that. My mind jumps around a lot and I have to read pages over and over again, so I started with a book that I've read before and I know what happens. It made it a lot easier to read. The next one is going to be something new though. I'm not sure this is something I can fix, but I do believe practice makes perfect and it can't be that difficult to focus on my own for more than 30 seconds.

I worked task to task and got done with everything on the list by 4:30 but I had all but one done before Noon. I even made a separate to do list and was able to get everything done on there as well. I felt rather accomplished. Sometimes I feel like my little day to day tasks don't matter and they feel very monotonous but they make my space look better and maintained and its one less thing my boyfriend has to worry about doing.

I'm really proud of myself for accomplishing day one, but I feel like I cheated because after I was done with everything I took a nap. As I was falling asleep I remember thinking that it was light outside and it would be dark when I woke up and for that reason alone I should stay up. I just feel bad for wasting some of my day but I'm choosing to forgive myself. I woke up at 6:30 AM and literally crushed it.

I'm a little nervous about tomorrow. When I'm by myself I feel like it's easier to do responsible things but tomorrow is beginning of my boyfriends weekend which means he'll be home for the next three days and it's a lot harder to get out of bed when you have your significant other holding you. I'm going to persevere though and try my best. I can't let myself down yet, not on Day Two already. Wish me Luck!