Day 2,000 in Quarantine

lol coronavirus is absolutely wrecking new york city as we know it. considering we are the most populated place ever we were hit pretty hard. i remember when the first person got it and it wasnt a big deal. then out of no where it seemed that 100's and 1,000's of people had it. and the virus didnt discriminate at all. all people can get it. the experts do say that seniors should beware though. it could really murk them. thats pretty much the only scary part for me at least. i just feel like alot of people who dont deserve to have their life cut so short (considering they made it so far) are deceased by the minute. literally the minute. its a scary world to be in right now. and it seems like everyone is running around like chickens with their heads cut off or something. including the government. they seem pretty scared about the situation as well. in a very unpopular opinion i feel that parts of our government has been doing a pretty good job. the numbers are decreasing and we are finding a way to fight this virus. it took a pandemic for just a teensie weensie bit of unity within our nation. but i cant complain its happening. and that all starts with the people. but im not obama , im not gonna preach here about that.

to keep myself occupied ive been making tons of art. music, choreography, painting, reading, whatever i can get my hands on literally. its been pretty fun if i do say so myself. literally myself. only me. creatively ive been blessed with all this space and time to do the things i love. so taking it day by day. its weird to think that i havent had contact with anyone in a VERY long time. ive had contact with my family but, the outside hasnt seen me in a minute. i feel like this quarantine is getting very very normal and im becoming accustomed to staying in. i do miss partying and seeing my friends and flirting with every girl possible with my bestfriends, but all that seems to be second grade to my newfound 12th grade love for quarantine. hear me out.

ive had nothing but wacky ideas for concepts and movies and fashion and music and dance, JUST EVERYTHING. this quarantine blessed me with something that everyone thought was taken away from them. Opportunity. so much time to just reset. the world is legit on pause. you can do whatever sparks your brain. because what job is stopping you (unless youre an essential worker, god bless your goddamn soul)? what annoying traffic cant get you to your office when you have that spark of the brain moment? legit nothing. everything is at you're leisurely use. its actually so handy. ive created more songs than ive ever created in the entirety of my music career and ive danced so much at home. created stories and projects in my head that not only inpire me to just keep going but ones that i feel really stand out from my others.

social media seems to be disappearing from the equation day by day. i post to promote my things that i create. then its back to creation. i felt that it was holding me back a bit. a big distraction for sure. its not the plague (no pun intended), i just didnt seem to have a healthy relationship with it. i dont know. i feel that it delays me from whatever i want to do because im worried about what other people are posting. or whats the word on the street. but i noticed that once im in my own bubble i can truly create whats inside my head and not a fabrication of what i think i should create based on whats popular. its truly interesting. in life, pandemic or not, how often are you able to really get deep into your own brain with zero distractions to take you away from whats really going on in there? the answer to that is close to never. or one in a million just to play devils advocate, and even then its slim pickens. so i really find that taking this time has helped me mentally by refreshing those small stem cells inside that make me ME. i dont hate instagram i never said that (plz endorse me), i just believe that it could hide the potential that us creatives have. not even just creatives but. humans. especially during a time like this one where we have ample time to get in there.

in closing i will say that yes. i definetely am losing my mind. but in the long run i see this pandemic as a refresh. goodbye old ideas, hello new future.