Breaking Free

I am at rock bottom. The only way is up. Failure is not an option. I believe in myself more and more and more with each passing day. Violence and loss and debt have changed me, made me unfckablewith: my resolve can cut diamonds. No one, no thing, no body in this galaxy will stop me. These are not affirmations they are facts. My belief has carried me through to become the idea guy that my original idea knew I would become. All it took was a true subconscious surrender to my belief in myself. Faith in saying yes to who you truly are and taking the small steps that you viscerally believe in to become that which you seek. I am the idea and the idea is greater than I because I was born from the idea. Wow, I love right now because there is no such thing as yesterday or tomorrow Right Now.

As I sit at 16891 S. Pacific Ave, Sunset beach I can't help but pinch myself and proceed to ask myself if I am dreaming. It's seems like it all happened in a blur or an instant, or a blurry instant, but it took 7 long years. The depths were filled with the loss of both parents and getting furloughed from a six figure dream job where I got to create as a video editor for some of the biggest media outlets in the world. These are now the heights as I have my own beach house I get to share with the most beautiful woman in the world, my wife. I also own my own media corporation Rowe Your Own Boat Productions, which includes my own studio in my dream house and my own T-shirt line, Personalla-Tee. The ideas just flow now because of the work I have put in to channel source into who I am. My t-shirt company alone is making 50k a month and my U tube channel broadcasting my world travels with my wife has well over 3 million subscribers and about 7 million followers. Who would have thought that reading the right books, eating the right food and an undying belief in a big dream could get me to the place where I have always been but just didn't know it; Happiness. Waking up enough to realize that happiness is your very essence; Joy is your given name by definition. It took pitch black darkness in my life to realize that I am the light. There is no switch outside of me. I turn on my light simply by being me. That's when everything changed and I no longer felt like a victim because my imagination created my future divinely. Instead of feeling like Job I took 100% responsibility for everything in my life and became the Creator of my life.

Suddenly I am jolted awake by my old friend fear. I had nodded off briefly after securing the inmates in their cells and writing in my dream journal. I awoke to find my pen has now run out of ink and I'm not at the dreamy beach house but on the prison pod where I now work at a juvenile prison. My current situation does not define me but it shall prepare me to get where I am going, where I am meant to be. Where I am. My job description is youth development coach but in truth I am a corrections officer. As they say, sometimes you do what you have to to get where you want to go. I have worked here two long years, had facial surgery from being assaulted and I have 9 more payments to be free of my debt program so in 10 months I can purchase my editing equipment and my t-shirt equipment. The rest will be history and one of the greatest reinventions of all time as I have been working manual labor at a golf course, driving Uber for 3 years and then working 12 hour shifts solo with 8 inmates in prison while wearing a mask for covid19 regulations the entire time on the cell block. My previous career is a distant memory but my future is now. I believe in me to the core of my Happiness. Thank you covid-19, thank you death, thank you Neville Goddard and Michael Singer for your awakened wisdom. Thank you Kamal Ravikant for showing us how to love yourself like your life depended on it, because it does. Thank you fear for honing my resolve and strengthening my character enough to decide that anything is possible and anything is what I will do to become me. Fear is your friend if you can keep moving forward while you are experiencing it. As Mark Twain once penned "With courage you will dare to take risks, have the strength to be compassionate, and the wisdom to be humble. Courage is the foundation of integrity." Most of all thank you to my wife for believing in me unwaveringly. Becoming the best version of me is what fulfills me everyday. I thought my job of 26 years was my passion but it turns out I'm meant for SO much more. Failure, fear and even death will not stop me in my quest. I have everything I need inside of me. I love this journey from rock bottom to the highest stone in the land. Learning to be happy and content while taking each step is the secret. Walking your path without asking the question why? Always unwaveringly believing in your destination. Life is Ephemeral, I Am going to make it Memorable!!!!!

16891 HERE I COME!!!