Believe in God first

This part of my story was written on July 2, 2018. I will start slowly for my readers to feel where I am coming from with no judgment. I want my readers to take my story and my accomplishments and use it in their everyday lives from this point on. Eventually, you get tired of being in the dark, and you want to be heard. I am such a go-getter, and I want so much for my-self. No matter my trials and tribulations, I've always stayed true to being a good human being. Take my strength and learn from it. I want to help all of us succeed. HONESTLY, I CAN'T BELIEVE I AM DOING THIS. I can go on and on about the things I've been through, but then I think to myself. FOR WHAT? So I can look like a victim, so people will judge my story to laugh. And that little voice in my head says, "you're not doing it for them. You are doing it for YOU". Rolonda, you're not like everybody else. You have a VOICE.

All your life, you've been corrupt into think-ing you suppose to be this person every-body else wants you to BE. I am here to tell my readers that that chapter of my life is dead and gone. It's time to stand up and do what you believe. PUT THAT PRIDE TO THE SIDE AND SHOW THEM WHAT YOU CAN DO. I tell people all the time nobody can stop you but you. Since a little girl, I've dealt with this hard knock life of mine. Always walk around with my head held low. I had it so bad I used to tell myself all the time, "what's the point in achieving anything when I'm going to die eventually one day" YUP, I was that girl. OMGOSH, imagine somebody constantly telling you you're crazy, continually kicking you in and out, Constantly calling the police on you, and being under 15. Now imagine that somebody who took you out of the system and was supposed to provide for you and teach you how to grow, and then BOOM, she kicks you out to the streets. How was she a mother to me? My story is REAL, and I am my ONLY motivation, and now I want to motivate YOU. Sometimes isolation is critical, and some-times there's a reason why God sets you in the world to be alone. Trust me; I had to learn the hard way. But I'm telling you I appreciate people more than anything now because I go every day of my life with NO support system whatsoever. It makes me SO strong. I suffer mood swings, but who doesn't. I mean, what's normal about feeling alone in a world full of harsh people, people that don't give a fuck about you. I ask myself, am I the reason? Well, I'm here to tell you HELL NO; trust me when I say everything I could have been through could have killed me, instead it was being mentally unstable or cutting my wrist and ending it all, but my heart is SO BIG, and I am a firm believer that if people want to be in your life, THEY WILL. It's called UNCONDITIONAL LOVE; even I know that! Don't ever let nobody tell you that YOU pushed them away. I had to learn a harsh lesson at a very young age about what life will bring. What makes things so much more traumatizing is here at age 27. It is now 11/28/2021. I started this book three years ago, and I still feel alone in this cold world. I need you guys more than you'll ever know. I need somebody to listen and hear what I am saying. I need my supports to grasp on to my knowledge and keep moving forward with me. Let's look out for each other.

A note from the author My next story will be more about some traumatizing moments for me, that I know a lot of you guys can and will relate to.