Coping With My PTSD

Coping With My PTSD

Thank you to my Mental Health Team2025

These past few weeks have been a rollercoaster. I also have Stomach Obstruction on top of that. Every year, I usually volunteer in the community. I attended the Election Training but was unable to volunteer on Election Day. My gut health was terrible. I wrote about my Obstruction before.

Today, I had a court date by phone, and my dear friend Karen came over for moral support. My Facebook friends always send prayers and good vibes. I have also been seeing a mental health team for help in coping with my ex-husband. It's been over 15 years since the divorce, but he consistently harassed me before he was sentenced to 15 years in jail last year. That's another story.

I was having a hard time sleeping, and I was reliving his abuse in my head every time I was thinking of today's court date. I started taking Sertraline in 2022 due to my shaking every time I was around my ex-husband. I could not cope with my PTSD and my Stomach Obstruction at the same time.

It was like a war in my body and in my mind. The pains stored in the body and memory just wanted to get out, but I was not allowing them.

( Method)This method acknowledged the feelings of pain.

https://youtu.be/1yQX1y7zMAg?si=uMRH7u3p53qTBgdW

Harmony Haven Meditation: Leaves on a Stream Guided Meditation

I asked my friend to come over and be my moral support. She did even if she was in the middle of something. ( She actually offered to come over.)She is truly a gift. She is an angel. She is getting married this coming Valentine's Day 2026.

I was in therapy for over an hour yesterday, and it certainly helped me cope with my ex-husband. I was having a mental breakdown. I was feeling very overwhelmed, and things in my purse were falling out.

I was reliving the physical abuse in my head over and over again, which did not solve anything.

The therapist was very supportive and understood what I was going through. She even let me listen to calming music during our session.

She did have to ask questions. I share what I do at home to cope.

I told her why I did not take Sertraline every day, as I am supposed to. I tried it several times on the fourth consecutive day, and I started having thoughts of wanting to hurt myself. Now, take it every other day or every two days to help prevent those thoughts.

I do self-talk and tell myself that's not me talking, but the pain. The pain inside is like a child that wants to remove the hurt from resurfacing repeatedly like a broken record. It makes you feel very fatigued.

I also learn that I do not have to react to my ex-husband's poor behavior; my lawyer was very excellent at keeping my ex-husband in check. I thought my ex-husband was going to let loose his violent tendency. He just shouted at the Judge and at my lawyer.

My lawyer did not put up with my ex-husband's nonsense. My Sertraline keeps me very calm today. I would typically get emotional and start crying without the Sertraline. I let out all my pain and grievances at my therapy session yesterday as well.

The night before, I also listened to a hypnosis recording to build courage and become fearless. I did not eat this morning but drank water, so my stomach won't have any excuse to throw up or be in pain. I only had one meal yesterday, Chicken Salad.

I put a full stop armour for this court date. I also said my silent prayers for everyone involved. I thank everyone who supported me during this rollercoaster ordeal. My gut and Primary care teams are the best as well.

Thank you, God, for everything!