Journal Entry: Tues. May 31st 2022

Tuesday, May 31st 2022

I wake and brew a Bones Coffee Co. Carrot Cake in my Z's Divine Espresso mug. The machine explodes coffee everywhere. It's a mess. It seems it's not closing properly on the eco-cup. I clean up the coffee that shot everywhere.

Loki sits on my lap and we chill listening to Angel Olsen's, 'All Mirrors.' The pain is pretty bad today, but I'm trying to ignore it. I take a Tylenol.

I feast on Oatmeal with protein powder, cinnamon, agave, blueberries, and peanut butter.

Then I do the dishes, listening to Angel Olsen's, 'MY WOMAN.'

I shower with Bourbon, 2-n-1, Head and Shoulders, Shampoo/Conditioner. Then I lather myself with Duke Cannon Buffalo Trace Bourbon Soap and rinse. I then smother myself with body wash: Duke Canon THICK Bourbon Bodywash. After rinsing I rinse my hair. Then I use my Duke Cannon Buffalo Trace Bourbon Plant-Based Beard Wash. I rinse. I dry and comb my red beard with its elegant white streaks.

I put on Axe Apollo Fresh Stick, because they were out of Phoenix.

Shelby gets me an iced Hazelnut Latte from Starbucks. I sip it while we watch the rest of Enchanted. It's not really my thing, but I enjoy it.

I put in Big Bourbon Beard Balm and put on Bourbon Cologne Balm.

Shelby and I watch Inside The Outtakes. It's so good. I honestly don't know why Netflix didn't put this up. Some of these songs are fully formed.

I go outside and write for awhile, but there is someone at my table. So I go to a different table, but it's too in the middle of everything.

I come inside and write some more. I write a Drip-Droplian Sonnet about having cancer and how it's okay, because I found the love of my life. I don't really mind dying, because I got to love Shelby, and that makes everything worth it. It doesn't matter that I didn't achieve my other dreams, because I got to love her, and that's the best thing ever in the whole wide world.

I have a Dragon's Milk. Then I have another.

I listen to Phoebe Bridgers at first; then I listen to the 'Is It New Wave?' playlist on Spotify.

Shelby orders us My Vegan. I get Spicy Basil Noodle with mushrooms and eggrolls. I end up eating some of Shelby's Teriyaki vegitables.

We watch Sex Education. It's pretty good so far.

Shelby makes me a cherry, 7-Up, and vanilla vodka drink.

We watch more Sex Education.

I shower with Bourbon, 2-n-1, Head and Shoulders, Shampoo/Conditioner. Then I lather myself with Duke Cannon Buffalo Trace Bourbon Soap and rinse. I then smother myself with body wash: Duke Canon THICK Bourbon Bodywash. After rinsing I rinse my hair. Then I use my Duke Cannon Buffalo Trace Bourbon Plant-Based Beard Wash. I rinse. After I'm done washing I just sit in the bottom of the bathtub with the hot water washing over me, thinking about the future. But I get lonely. I dry and comb my red beard with its elegant white streaks.

I put on Axe Apollo Fresh Stick, because they were out of Phoenix.

And then we go to bed.

I can't sleep and get scared thinking about cancer and how the future's uncertain. This is the first time in a long time I haven't had a whiskey, which is probably why I have such trouble sleeping. I get lonely so I cuddle with Shelby, and it makes me feel better. I finally drift off to sleep.

And that's it.

That's my day.

That's Tuesday, May 31st 2022