The misconceptions of a 22 year old male Asian-Brit

Do I start with a subtitle? What would the answer be? I'm only writing due to a looming boredom and untapped creative potential. Do I go somewhere with this? Why would anyone care? Race does not matter, they say, yet a lot of the time I feel because of my own earth-shattering beliefs social constructs have made me believe. The misconceptions of a 22 year old male Asian living in Britain (in the 21st Century).

• University: done
• Secondary School: done
• Primary school: great time and done

I will use writing as a way of understanding the world, my world, our world. So many questions... I'm gonna write these next words or paragraphs for 10 minutes straight. Could money be the only constant? Time is the only constant, it's always there and you can never see it, like self-esteem. Whether you have high or little of it, people have it. What increases ones self-esteem? What has increased my own self-esteem? Performing, sex, freedom, knowing my freedom, acting on my freedom. Sometimes I stare into the distance as if a camera is capturing my thought process. There is not camera, yet. The misconceptions of a 22 year old male Asian-Brit.

Illogical, asshole, uninspired, needy. All those I am not, yet I am all at the same time. Girlfriend. I desire a gf. Could have at one point (or perhaps several) but was terrified of being accepted for who I truly am. I have a British accent, I even look half. I aspire to be like those men who take charge of anything in front of them but there is a mental wiring that must take place. Who to go to? Can anyone...

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[continued next day]

There comes a point in someone's life, someone of my economic stature where a job must be taken in order to progress. True progression in this modern world REQUIRES finance. There's no hiding from it. It doesn't buy happiness and the only value there is on it is the value we place on it. £100 can mean £100 + more. What if you buy a present for your mother with that £100? You buy orchids and her favourite CD. That is how money can buy you experiences and bring value into your life. People like justifying how they don't value money over relationships, but how can that relationship thrive when you can't afford to see them in the first place. Money is essential and there is nothing wrong with it. Accept it, learn to love it for what it is. A means, not an end. Is this 600+ words yet?

I should learn how to go for it more. Push myself that doesn't break me down. Or break me down? Maybe that would be beneficial. I have to learn to sit with the journey and be humble enough to start from the beginning.

My friend and me want to achieve things that some may say is unattainable, but why should we listen to them? Is laziness a thing? Some say it is the result of procrastination, procrastinating from doing the work needed to progress my life. Who said it is going to be easy? But who said it has to be hard? I think maybe we already have the right tools at our disposal, we should be humble enough to seek help to upgrade those tools in order to use them the right way. Even though life can sometimes be harsh it is for a reason I believe. for example, my mates speaking to me in a certain way. Perhaps it was a push for me to e more assertive and confident and be like them, after all that is what I ultimately want. I should get over my fears and acknowledge them. This could be engaging enough for a two year old. Who is my target demographic? To thrive int he world you need to know how it works and then put your own spin on it. Boys like making fun of each other, so does the majority of the public, but deep down people are decent. Do you have to play the game in order to win it?