breakups
When it comes to breakups, pain is inevitable, but Humans thinks that suffering is optional.
The Battle Between Wanting & Knowing
I can’t explain how tough it is when you have to make decisions based on knowing rather than wanting. An easy everyday life example would be wanting; sweets, cake or a cigarette but knowing it’s unhealthy and 80% of the time picking the cake.
By Anthony Ball6 years ago in Humans
Everything I want to text my ex
These thoughts of texting you just become so overwhelming sometimes. But just as I get the courage to do it, I wonder if you even still care about me. If you still have feelings for me. If you still think about me as I think about you, 24/7. Below is a list of different things that I've thought of texting you that I never did.
By The Lost Wanderer6 years ago in Humans
Falling in love
the sound of my alarm went off signaling it was time to get up and get ready for work. i took my phone off the charger and walked into the bathroom and sat it on my ihome and turned on drakes new album Nothing was the same. i stripped out of my pajamas and turned on the shower waiting for the water to to get hot. when i got inside the shower i just started thinking, thinking about everything. yazmin, her father, my grandmother, and even exavier. he wont leave me alone. he texts all day everyday trying to apoligize but im not even that mad i just feel really stupid that i told him about yazmin and her dad and my whole situation. it had nothing to do with him.my favorite song off the ablum cam on "own it" the words in this song are so true. next time we fuck, i dont want to fuck, i want to make love next time we talk, i dont want to talk, i want to trust next time i stand tall, i want to be standing for you and next time i spend i want it all to be for you i sat in the shower and cried, i just cried. all these bottled up emotions just came out. im so tired of being lied to and hurt. the only person i have left that i really know will love me forever and always is Yazmin. after i finished crying and washing my hair i turned off the water i wrapped my towel around myself and then brushed my teeth. i walked back in my room and put on my purple scrubs and some sandales. i put my hospital sneakers in my bag.i walked into yazmins room to see she was wide awake waiting for me "good morning baby girl" i said as if she could understand me. "mama" she said with her arms out waiting for me to pick her up. when i did i kissed her forehead and walked back into the bathroom. i mad her a little bath and put some of her toys in there i sat her in the tub and let her play for a minute while i put on some eye shadow and gloss and threw my still damp hair in a bun. when i turned around yaz was looking at me which ment she was done playing. i washed her up and cleaned her good. i put on her hoody bathrobe and brushed her teeth. i walked back into her room and lotioned her and put on her diaper. she was babbling about something and i just pretened like i understood. i got her orange and camel colored sundress out of closet and put it on her. i sat her off the bed and let her run around the house. i walked to the kitchen and started to make myself some breakfast and got out some gerber for yaz. i decided to make BLT. i walked into the living room to see yazmin sprawled out on the floor laughing. shit i forgot to do her hair. i picked her up and put her bib un and sat her in the high chair. i got the gerber and her spoon and sat them in front of her. she started to eat her food as i put some apple juice in her sippy cup. after i sat her cup down in front of her my phone started going off. i walked into into the living room and picked up my phone off the table and answered it without looking at the caller ID thinking it was dana, well wasnt i wrong.hello" i said answering it. "im coming to pick up Yazmin" i had to think for a minute who it was and that it all clicked. Rico. "excuse me?" i replied "you heard me bitch im coming to get my daughter so have all her shit ready becuase shes staying with me for a minute" he said but i could barely hear him over the loud ass music but he must be out of his mind if he thought he was coming over here to get her. "Rico are you crazy? you never wanted my daughter so dont come around now wanted to play good parent. your a dead beat and you have no custody over my daughter. your name isnt on the birth certificate so all you are is a check in the mail. if you come over here rico you will be getting picked up by the cops so try this bitch if you want to" i said walking back in the kitchen watching Yazmin make a mess out of her food. so she was done eating. i took the food and put in the garbage waiting for this dead beat of a father to respond."you go it Liana, but if i find out theres another nigga raising MY seed, i will have a hit on your head and his, and then that sweet little baby will be mine!" he said laughing and sounding like an alliterate dumb ass. " get the fuck off my phone with you nonsense nigga you sound dumb.. good bye!" i said hanging up. i walked over to Yazmin and walked into the bathroom so i could do her hair i sat her down in her little chair. she started crying instantly because she hates getting her hair done. i started to brush her thick curly hair up tinto a bun as a her screams only got louder. "Yazmin Ammenah Simmons if you dont stop all the crying" i yelled startling her and making her stop crying. i finished putting her hair in a messy bun. i put her jean jacket in her diaper bag with the rest of her stuff and grabbed my bag aswell. i let her walk because i had so much stuff in my hand. i locked the door and unlocked the car door i put the bags in the back and and strapped yaz in her car seat. i drove to her day care which was right by exaviers house. i was glad we left earlier because there was traffic. i dropped her off and at first she didnt want to leave until she saw miss laura who is her favorite daycare teacher. i gave her a kiss and was off to the hospital. when i arrived there was a big edible arrangements of chocalate covered strawberries on the desk. i clocked in at the desk and anothoney walked around the corner."isnt it cute" he said.yea it is, who is it for?" i said, i thought i was dana's boyfriend but she was walkin around the corner and walked past it as if she already saw it. "its for you, you obviously didnt read the card inside of it." he said laughing. "no i did not read the card because im not as nosey as you ant" i said laughing. i walked to where the bouqet of fruit was and took the card of the stick and it read: " Liana i know you probably hate me but if you would give me a chance to explain i would really appriecate it. can i take you to lunch today? 2:30.. that is your break time right? Olive Garden around the corner? hope to see you later ~Exavier <3" i dont understand why he just wont give up. theres nothing to even explain plus i dont even know if i want to see him. but then again why was i so mad? he's not my man, so why trip. i do wanna hear his explanation so maybe ill go. The day has been moving really fast and its already 2:10. i decided to take my break a little earlier so that i wouldnt be rude and come in late. i clocked out for lunch and walked to my car. i drove about 10 minutes to the resturant and parked in the driveway. i walked inside and told the man that it was 2 and the reservation was probably under wilson. he said he was already here and to follow him. well, here goes nothing.....
By Taliyah Eliis6 years ago in Humans
The secrets of an unloved object
He’s after me because he likes the challenge: the cat-and-the-mouse game, the construction puzzle of convincing me that it is worth it. He says I’m so unlike the others; of course I’m so unlike. The one at that moment always is.
By Salomea Becquerel6 years ago in Humans
The Last Time
I thought we were best friends. I thought she trusted me. She’d tell me everything and anything, even if she wasn’t supposed to, as if it was just gossip. But not this time. No, this time she didn’t tell me anything whatsoever. I always confessed to everything that was going on with me. Why hadn't she?
By Lucy Robinson6 years ago in Humans
And So It Begins
S You don’t know me but you think you know something of me. You have never met me but you think you have, in some small way, through the words of my husband. You are on far sturdier ground than I because I know nothing of you except that you make my husband’s heart beat faster and he won’t hold my hand now he has held yours.
By Lexie Swann6 years ago in Humans
Young Love and Broken Promises
That bastard, the liar that broke my heart and all the promises he made... My ex boyfriend. His name was Eli. In all honesty, the day I found out his name I should've ran for the hills. His name is basically saying that E (his once upon a time nick name) lies. Anyways let's get to how this story connects to figurative fear.
By Anita Rose Kennedy6 years ago in Humans
My First Love
Since I was little I have always looked at things from the outside, an observer. When my siblings would get in trouble I would take it as a lesson of what not to do. However, I've also always been shy, and protective over my heart, I've never given it away easily. Everyone has their first love at some point though, right? Normally that comes with your first heartbreak too unfortunately. More often than not though, people have some small "relationships" before they have their first real love. When we're young and dumb, this always ends up being the person we believe we will spend the rest of our life with. This is exactly what happened to me too. When I first met him, he was sweet, kind, and never treated me bad. He became my best friend. However, as things progressed, life happened. His home life wasn't great, he had some health problems, he developed some anger issues, and struggled with the "long distance." Before I knew it he gave me a promise ring. When I first took it, I thought OMG YES! As time went on though, I though, what happened, and I grew scared of the future. About half a year passed by and we began to grew apart. Things weren't getting better, and we were always fighting. One day I broke up with him. I was devastated but relieved because I knew that even though it hurt now but things were going to get better. A few months passed and I was still hurting, I did stupid things to try and feel better but nothing was working. So what did I do? I reached out and before I knew it we were back together. Things were slightly different but I felt happy. Come to find out it wasn't the same for him though. New Years Eve, we talked about everything, and what all we wanted to do in the next year. The next day told me something different though... we broke up. It was odd, how he changed his mind that fast, literally within a few hours. How do you go from loving someone, and wanting to spend years together, then not want anything to do with them? Later I found out, he changed his mind quicker than I thought. He went to lunch with one of his friends and heard all about how his friend loved seeing his girlfriend everyday. That was the moment he decided that he wanted to have someone else. He didn't want me anymore. It was odd, not knowing how someone could change their mind about you that fast. I still loved him. How do you not love someone that you spent nearly a year with? It's hard not to, I'll tell you that. For a while you're numb, but time goes by and you learn to be okay, and start to love yourself again. You move on, and you find someone else. First loves are the one of the hardest ones to go through. You never truly forget your first love. They're apart of who you are.
By Grace Sharp6 years ago in Humans
