I'm Different

Hey everyone! I'm Amanda. I've been writing here for a few years now and boy have I bared my naked soul to yall. I've written about heartbreaks, music, lessons. You name it. But now I'd like to tell you how much i've changed over the last 5 years.

1. I have proper boundaries: I know what I will/will not tolerate from someone. I will call them out if I don't like whats being said/done to me. I realize that people shouldn't change to make others more comfortable and i'm a HUGE advocate of that. But I'm talking about another thing I'm a huge advocate of: LOVE. Loving someone so much that you put boundaries in place so that the relationship can work and it also says you love yourself enough to know what you deserve. I used to be a people pleaser, I used to change myself around everyone and tolerate things i would NEVER tolerate now. I learned, i did the work. I learned what i don't want from a person and what i do. I learned that boundaries are essential.

2. what i want from a relationship has shifted: I don't want anything other then a level of saftey that is indescribable. I am saving myself for the one, they need to realize the weight of that and understand what a gift that is. They need to understand that i'm not going to be dating just to date, i'm dating to find the one. I'm not doing this again.

3. My love for animals is eternal. I will never love anyone more then my pets. They have gotten me through some dark times and they are my children.

4. I fight because i protect myself. I call people out because I need to protect myself.

5. Communication. I notice everything and note it. i don't play games. I don't talk just to talk. so when i do talk you better listen.

6. I'm not here to hookup. i don't do that. Period.

7. I know now that what i used to tolerate from people is never okay. EVER.

8. I deserve far more then what most guys are capable of giving me.

9. I want everyone to know that they also deserve more and should aim higher. Expect better from people. Don't settle.

10. Don't make excuses. If you want something say it. If someone hurts you tell them,

And I think the most important lesson here is that you do matter, i matter. what happended to you is not your fault but sadly it is your job to make sure it never happens again. which may sound stupid but it's true! I definitley learned that in therapy.

11. Therapy is okay! go, talk it out with someone. Unpack your shit. work thrrough things and let it go.

12. Writing is an art form. For years i've written, spoken my story and made my lifes mission for as many people to hear it so they can relate. I've bared my naked soul to you guys and will continue to do so.

13. Love is worth fighting for. Keep going. Keep fighting. Keep working on you. Keep setting boundaries keep it all up. You'll find the right one.

14. What you want exists. don't settle for less. You owe yourself the world. Don't give into love bombs and shit. You were made for more then that. Love yourself and the rest will come later. There is a time for everything and it will happen. I've had to learn that many times over. it's okay! You'll be fine i promise.