Well it's been a while

Hello! It's been a long time since I've written. A lot has changed, I got my Associates Degree in Human Services. I graduated 2 months ago with a 3.76 GPA. I'm now getting my bachelors degree which I will have in one year. I flipped the script of the narrative that I thought i would have forever. I thought I never get anywhere for the longest time but after doing 2 amazing internships and getting my degree I can confidentially say that I will do it all. I will be a damn good therapist and a writer and podcaster. I'm extremely excited for what the future holds.

To all the people reading this who think they won't get anywhere I want you to hear me when I say this: YOU ARE WORTH IT. You will get everything you deserve and you will find a light at the end of the tunnel. Healing takes time and is not a one size fits all approach. People think it is from point A----Point B in a straight line. But that couldn't be farther from the truth! Healing is all over the place, sometimes you feel great and others you feel like shit. It's all a process and you have to learn to enjoy the ride because you'll learn more about yourself then you ever thought possible.

For example over the last 2 years I've learned that I am worth it, my stories will help a lot of people and I am beautiful inside and out. I've also learned that I am smart and will go very far in life. I have a very bright future ahead of me. I know I will do a lot of transformative work with my clients. I also know that my writing and podcast will help a lot of people as well. There is a whole population of people waiting for my help and I keep remembering that. It's so true!

I also know that I worthy and deserving of love and not the romantic kind, just self love and love of everything I'm doing and learning. Over the last two years I've fallen back in love with school and psychology and Human Services and it's been the best thing ever. I've fallen in love with internships and had my eyes opened to things I never would have otherwise.

I've fallen in love with slow mornings and sleeping. I've fallen in love with developing a self care routine and being solo. I've fallen in love with nature and animals. I've fallen in love past books I've written and the reasons I wrote them. I've fallen in love with boundaries and saying what I will and won't tolerate. I've fallen in love with standing up for myself and sourdough starters. I've fallen even more in love with Taylor swifts discography. (Just had to say that, if you know you know) I've fallen in love with routines and structure. I've fallen in love with the idea of a Tiny House. I've fallen in love with wood stoves and cozy fires. I've fallen in love with sunsets and the idea that there might be something bigger then ourselves out there.

But most importantly more then anything else. There is one thing I've fallen in love with, something that i never thought i would ever fall in love with. I used to think loving this was insane. But once I did it i realized how i should've all along. That thing is very simple, very fun and very caring and wants to help others. That thing is only 2 letters really: ME.