"I Am Not What Has Happened To Me, I Am Who I Choose To Become"

It's been me against the world for as long as I can remember. I never knew my parents; they abandoned me once I was born. I wish I knew who I was and where I belonged in the world but instead I feel like all I have are questions with no answers, like there's a part of me missing. I would wish every night that things may have turned out differently, that this was all just my sick imagination but I was always disappointed by this harsh reality.

I guess I can't really complain, at least I have this one person in my life that has always been there for me ever since he found out. He's been nothing but supportive and understanding. I'm luckier than most, some people don't even have that. We met on my 15th birthday and ever since then he has stuck by my side through it all; the good, the bad and even the ugly. I can't believe I'm already 15, man how the time has flown, I couldn't imagine my life and how it could have turned out if I didn't meet him. I mean, I would have been completely and utterly alone, no friends, no family.

I know it sounds clique but he was like a dream come true, he came into my life when I needed him the most. He's a real inspiration to my life, everything I desired. His eyes sparkled like the stars in the night sky and his smile always made me smile, it lit me up when I was down, like a candle in the darkness. I knew I could trust him, I could rely on him, that he'd be there for anything. I could always be myself, even if I was having the worst days. He would try and make me laugh, make me forget all the bad that was happening around me and just bring me back from my dark place.

Who I am is starting to become clearer, I can almost see the end of what was a bad start to life. I may not know anything about my parents or who I was for those few years with them but it no longer matters because I am who I want to be when I'm around him. It's like he rescued me, I went down the wrong path but he came and set me in the right direction. I still remember the day we met, like it just happened yesterday, it was the happiest I'd been in so long.

I love him, he means the world to me, I couldn't see life without him in it. You know how women use the phrase 'my night is shining armor' when ever a man comes to the rescue, well in this case, he was actually mine. I pretty much gave up on life, being alone facing the world with no direction on where I was headed, no plans, no future but he saved me. I can never repay him for that.

I have him to thank for everything, sticking by my side and standing up for me, helping me bring my inner-self back into the light.

I may not be able to go back in time and change the outcomes of the situations, trust me I wish I could but knowing I can't makes it easier because I would never have met this truly wonderful man and that terrifies me. I'm just glad that's a choice I don't have to make, because I physically cant.