I am Supposed to be a Capricorn

I am scared when looking at things for my star sign. According to everything I am the exact opposite of my start sign. I live in a fantasyland inside of my mind to cope with my depression. Hiding behind everything like a scared child. Protecting myself from being hurt, either by other people or just what is in my mind.

My most compatible with a Virgo for my relationship. I have an ex-husband who is a Virgo. The relationship was toxic and wild, never knowing what he was going to do next to me. It was like gasoline and little fuses igniting it. It burned and scarred me, and maybe it's because I wasn't acting like a Capricorn or he wasn't very true to his sign either.

I tell myself I don't believe in astrology to much. Yet, anytime I see something with my star sign it I click it. Whether it is on Facebook, TikTok or somewhere completely random. I have to know and then I am disappointed when it is not something that is like me at all.

Every now and then a tidbit is like me, but not enough to actually make me feel proud of being a Capricorn. I see other people who are Capricorns and they aren't like me either. They are ambitious and proud in everything that they do. Me, I have recently been spreading my wings a little bit. Seeing what I could do.

That also circles back to the relationship with the Virgo. Maybe it's because I don't have someone keeping me pinned all the time. Telling me something is stupid, like my hobbies and interests. I am a nerd and finally started collecting things for my interests again.

I recently just started writing again, that is why I am here. I might be trying to start living up to the name of being a Capricorn. I might be breaking free of different things that have confined me for so long.

Writing this very short memoir of myself, even though it's just about my star sign. I am coming to realize that maybe I am a Capricorn. At this point in this very short time I feel almost giddy.

I am supposed to be a Capricorn and I am going to make sure that is how I start living my life. I am going to not hide anymore from the fact that I am a Capricorn.

I will become ambitious and proud. I will make my life better and turn everything around. Even if I start doubting myself. I will remember I am a Capricorn and I need to act like it. I should be thanking whoever came up with this writing challenge. I feel almost serene right now all because I am supposed to be a Capricorn.