Learned Mistake

This was the first time I had seen him this distressed. I understood what I had just done had not helped our situation at all, in fact it made it worse and more dangerous. I had let my emotions get in the way of what needed to be done, and I was deeply sorry for what I had done. My heart was still racing and my eyes were still glowing. I had gained control of myself, but it was already too late. He had his arms over his head, while trying to keep himself together. He paced back and forth, trying to make sense of the situation. It was beginning to get dark and the forest pigments began to dim. The Greens,Purples,Pinks,Yellows, and Oranges all to Grey, to Black; because of me. I stood there silently observing him, trying to understand what he was thinking. There was no need for him to explain how angry and frustrated he was, I could see it, I could feel it. My glow began to dim out, as I had calmed myself completely. He finally took a seat on the ground and took deep breaths. It became very still. "Kelly...I'm sorry." I said. It barely came out of my mouth and it felt as though those words took the strength out of my soul, my heart sank. He heard me and met my eyes. It felt like he was talking to me through his stare. His eyes lingered on me and went back down to the ground, "What are we going to do now?" he asked. I thought for a moment and bit my lip, I didnt know. "You know what? You messed it up, you fix it," he said as he stood up. He looked at me and folded his arms. His stance became guarded and serious, "I dont even know why im even here with you, I would've already been out of here, if it was just me." A tingle of anger filled me. I understood fully the mistake I had made, but it sounded like he had forgotten that he was the reason we were here in this Forrest in the first place, before my mistake of getting us back here. "Kelley, I know I messed up. I understand why your angry-," I said. The forrest was still dimming, and the air beginning to become cooler. If we didnt get somewhere safe soon, we were going to get caught in the freeze. He interrupted,"Do you C.J? because you seem to always understand, until its about you. Its only about how you feel and what you feel, you dont think about anybody else, but yourself,C.J." I took in every word as him letting his frustration out, letting them roll down my shoulders, until I couldnt anymore. I cared, I cared so much so that I was here. I cared so much, but I wouldnt show it through tears, or yelling, I would show it through action. "Kelley, you're right I was selfish in that moment, I was only thinking about my feelings, not the outcome, but Im aware of that, and I already apologized."I replied with a firm tone, looking him straight in the eyes. He stared back at me. "You think apologizing is going to make things better? You think apologizing will save your sister?" My anger turned into Fury as I turned to walk away, I was done with this conversation, before someone got hurt. My sister was the reason I was here, trying to get out. As I walked forward, I felt myself shivering, as I had just noticed how cold it had gotten. "C.J" he said. His voice was calmer and filled with regret. He had realized how he had just hurt her. "C.j" he called again a bit louder, I continued forward as if I hadnt heard a single thing. "C.J!" He yelled so loud it made me stop mid step. The wind picked up and the trees swung violently, and then everything stopped. I could feel my face be filled with disgust and anger. I slowly turned my head in his direction, trying to gather myself not to hurt him. My stare pierced into his look of regret. I could feel him brace himself for impact. "Dont you ever yell at me again." I stated. My eyes stayed on him until he understood my seriousness. The tension of his body fell and he blinked a few times. His countenance looked a bit confused. He didnt move, he didnt say anything. I turned my back to him and began walking towards shelter.