Working at home, again.

Today started like any other day. I got up at 5am, I cleaned up while waiting for the coffee to be ready. Woke my husband so he was out the door in time. By the time he was gone and I had made breakfast, I had already clocked in.

My days are normally full of emails and meetings, while I juggle the spread sheets and projects in between.

Now? I juggle toddlers and every few days an angry teen-ager who doesn't like a partial school week. He goes Wednesday and Friday, plus does online school on the days he is home.

My littles are 2 and 3. They are thoroughly enjoying mom being at home and bribing them with popsicles so that she can listen in a meeting. Yes that is what it has come down too.

My day used to be that I could take the kids to a baby sitter and (yes I am going to say it) RELAX at work. It was my zone. I could stop worrying about everything at home and focus on work.

My head felt a bit woozy when we started this all in April. How was I going to keep things going with work and home? How would I keep things separate? Worked out fine the first few months because my husband was unemployed and he would keep the kids happy while I worked in my office (bedroom).

Now? Now that we have gone back after an almost free summer? My husband has a job, a job that he loves that I can't selfishly ask him to leave! Now I have to adjust to not only working from home again, but to working and parenting at the same time from home.

Its all the balls in the air at one time and hoping you don't squeeze one to hard it giggles during a meeting and askes for you to wipe their butt. Its bribing them with popsicles and cupcakes you are not sure how long have been in the back of the fridge. Its letting them have a little more screen time then you should have so that the report that was due this morning gets out before the end of day meeting.

I tried to be a stay at home parent when we had our youngest. It lasted two weeks. My husband took a year off to take care of the kids and he did such a wonderful job, I suck at it. I don't know how he did it.

No I am the one who is essentially the stay at home parent. I'm still potty training, cooking, cleaning and making sure the kids to don't kill each other. I am still every day amazed that my husband did this for a year. I cherish my one day a week I get to go into the office.

It looks like we will be doing this 'at home' thing until at least the first of the year. So we will see if I survive or if I get a live in nanny. I.e a better XBox....