The Warrior within

I can't really pin point when it started, my Journey. I don't know if the day was good or bad, what the weather was like or how many friends I had on facebook, none of it after all is real anyway. I do know that when I ask myself when my Journey started I see a bright light like they use at the Dr.s office. Those square ones they pull down from the ceiling. I take that as meaning my journey began when I was born into this lifetime.

I can't confirm and I know I have had other lifetimes here on this planet, I don't know how many but I know that this time it's different. I am learning to find myself. When we are born into this world there is a veil that is placed on us. You cannot see it but it is there, it prevents us from remembering who we truly are and how special and powerful we are. Our memories are erased as soon as we are born. We are conditioned to be what others want us to be, molded into the same as all. Told who to be, what to do, how to believe, what to feel, when to feel it. We are given a name, a Social Security number to identify us and then kept limited and weak for the rest of our existence. I do not consent. I never have.

I was born in July, a Leo. I have no patience and I don't like being told who I am or what I can and can't do. I am divinly guided and protected, here to help raise the frequency of the planet for the great awakening. It's a marvelous time to be alive and although I love being human and feel I have had many life times here, I have come to break generational curses and raise the frequency of Earth to love. We are ascending, it is the great awakening and every day I learn more about myself and the things I am capable of doing.

The people that come into our lives are meant to be there. We come to help each other remember. We come to help each other learn the lessons we need to ascend. We have Karmic souls helping us, Soul mates, angels, ET's, our Twin Flames are emerging and coming together with us. I really started my journey about 5 years ago when a karmic relationship knocked me down into the deepest depths of despair, loneliness, depression, anxiety, PTSD, Panic, anger and darkness I had ever known.

I sat with it. I looked at it. I made peace with. I started living again, I went into therapy and started to heal. That is where I learned what had been done to me and what to do to fix the abuse and damage to my brain. I learned I was an empath and that is why I can feel others pain when we are together. I learned that I must protect myself from others energy so that I don't take it onto myself. I began my healing then.

I don't remember three months of my life. I must have went to work, paid bills, took care of my kids, but honestly I don't remember. Those entire three months in my mind are blank. When I think of them I just see myself laying in the fetus position on the bed in the dark. I didn't think I would survive. I did. I graduated a 12 week Intense outpatient program in 4 weeks and was told to leave before I went backwards trying to heal everyone. I am a healer.

There are many different kinds of healers and I am still not sure what kind I am but I do know that sometimes I can sing a song I've never heard, sometimes I know what is going to happen before it happens and sometimes I know things I should never know and have no idea how I know them. Some people think I am stupid, but I'm very intelligent. I just don't have a reason to flaunt it or make others feel like I am better than them because we are all equal. We are all just an integral part of the universe.

Each one of us connected to the energy of Source. The Universe, God. We are all connected. I hurt you, I hurt me. I wish you harm it comes back to me 10 fold. We are one. I have learned that or always known it, really not sure which one.

I have also learned to love myself first so that I can better love others. I have learned that I love my laugh, even though it annoys others. I have a great smile and I don't intentionally harm anyone or anything. There were times in my life that I did harm others. By things I said or did behind their backs. I did it because of how I was feeling, the traumas I had endured. As I have began healing those traumas I have had the opportunity to not only change some contracts I made in other lifetimes, but I have so far retrieved three peices of my soul back. Nothing makes you feel more like yourself than soul retrieval. It's the best.

I have found out that things I have done in the past were not so good. In two seperate lifetimes my actions caused someone I loved dearly in each lifetime to die. I didn't kill them myself but my selfish actions led to their deaths. I have retrieved my soul from incedents and changed the contracts to more healthy contracts that protect everyeone including me.

I am changing into a new a better version of myself while learning about myself and what I have been through, what I can handle and what I deserve.

I grew up being told that God was a person in the sky. He would save me if I did what I was told or I would go to Hell. Hell is where Satan lives and it is fiery and evil. I never believed that because clearly, Heaven and Hell are all around us merely in another dimension and unseen by us here in this current dimension we are in. I live in Hell. I am not afraid. You cannot make me fear something I know so intimately.

I have always felt the souls of other dimensions pressing against me. Watching from some dark abyss. Portals sometimes opening and allowing the two to cross into one another. A man in the sky ruling from a throne of clouds. No. I don't believe. Another man ruling Hell, which presides, in the middle of Earth? I was never really sure since there an infinite planets, stars and galaxies. Again No, although for as much as I don't like the cold I have always joked that my room is the one closest to the furnace. Hell is where I already live so it's the most comfortable I suppose. Sometimes ignorance is bliss.

The world goes racing by, thinking it's normal that winter just lasted half a year and we haven't had so much snow in like 25 years, or something, I don't pay attention. Snow burns now. Burns. When I was young it would melt by fire. Now it burns. Nothing in this world is real anymore and some times it can get scary thinking about it because maybe we are not even real and we don't even know it. We are supposed to be peices of the Universe experiencing itself through billions of different perspectives.

We are supposed to be living a life of luxury and magic. Riding on dragons and eating food from the ground. Roaming, exploring, learning, and loving. We are supposed to be using our natural given gifts to flourish, but instead a curse was put on us so the Elite could rule the planet. They keep us divided, in fear, fighting against each other and living in our Egos. We have lost our compassion for others and forgotten how to use the gifts that are our birthright.

We have come to the Great Awakening. What a wonderful time to be alive. I know a lot of people are still following like sheep with the wolves close behind. It's sad really to see so many people that think this world, this life, is all normal. Do you really believe that governments are better than us? That they know what is best for you? Do you really think what they spray in the air and feed us in the food they mass produce from man made garbage is good for us?

Does nobody see that every time a new drug is taken there are 3 more needed to combat the one you took in the first place. Each Doctor visit is followed by referrals to see three other specialists for things you didn't even know you had or don't even have symptoms for. We think it's normal to have to do harmful testing even though we are not sick. We don't even question why we are doing it. We were just told we are supposed to.

I do not consent. There was a time I didn't think about it either. I just went along with it because that's what we do. That's what we are supposed to do. Honestly though have you ever really thought about what people are doing? We get up each day 5 days out of 7, we get ready, wearing what other people want us to. We spend most of our time working, usually for someone else and not ourselves. We come home to do the chores and go to sleep to wake up and do it again. While we are slaving our lives away for others the wage we make gets taken from us.

Nobody made that wage but us yet we are taxed on it?? It's insanity. I've never understood how it made sense to people. I understand paying one time for tax on things we buy like a house or a car. One time not each and every year. I don't understand how we need to keep paying taxes for the item we already paid taxes on. It's insanity.

We risk our health, pay more of our money out, and become sicker and sicker by going to and listening to Doctors of modern medicine. There is not one sickness on this planet that cannot be cured by a plant, herb, or mineral on this planet. That's how it was created. Giving radiation to cure cancer is insane. You may eventually kill the cancer but what else are you doing to the person. Insanity.

We waste our childhoods sitting in school, where we are not allowed our imaginations and taught to believe blindly for fear of failure. We are taught young the sting of failing in front of our peers, the beginnings of division and hate. We are taught that everything we are taught in school should be blindly learned not questioned and most of the things we are taught have nothing to do with life today and how to survive and thrive.

We are not taught how to regulate our emotions. We are not taught how to react to situations that trigger us and we are not taught to be kind and loving to others. We are not taught communication skills we are taught ridicule skills. We are taught to tear each other down, to be envious, jealous and angry towards others. To hate others for who they are what they bring to the table instead of lifting each other up and accepting who each of us are and rejoicing what we each bring to the table to make each of our lives more enjoyable and full of love and peace.

Just this month I have heard several people both yound and old that commented that life was just so boring. They found no joy in anything anymore. I have been feeling the same. No matter how much I think about it the only thing that would bring me joy is wandering this planet spreading love and kindness. Instead I am forced into this life of servitude to a government that doesn't even seem real anymore.

It's insanity that anyone still believes we have not been lied to about everything for all of time. We are rising now and breaking free of the illusion and although even I feel lingering fear of how it will all turn out, I try and keep a positive it's all going to be alright attitude. It's insane that so many of us are still just living blissing unaware of themselves and the real world around them.

All the monsters are real. All the fairy tales are real. They are just not what and who you think them to be. We must awaken to ourselves and learn who we are so that we can open our gifts and use them for the better of all. Once we awaken and come together our world will change to the heaven we were always meant to have.