Word of the Day: やばい

I decided to go to class with no make up on. I am a bit worried about it. I guess I do fear being judged. Maybe that's why I keep watching those 90's vids... I still need to buy some lipgloss or something.

It was fine, I think every0ne is just tired from all the studying. This is 201 after all, we aren't starting from the beginning.

I need to recover today but I wanted to try and stream. I was going to order indian food but then they took their siesta right now so I have to wait until 5pm... I am just eating kimchi jeong and corn tortilla chips for now.

I guess nothing really did change from going to classes, I still have my life, I am still here.

I eventually got my Indian food but it is now the next day. I have just been sleeping for two days over this weekend. I didn't stream at all. I don't think I can finish my homework so quick as to do it today. Though, I guess I got my energy back to do homework today and, that has to be good enough.

I am worrying too much about how I am approaching the discord server thing. I am posting a lot and James decided to private message me. I hope I am not becoming a nuisance.

I have been just laying down all today too. I mean I have been listening to Japanese reels/videos so I feel like it is a bit considered studying. I did practice writing a bit as well but, if I am completely honest, I know it isn't an adequate amount of studying.

I also need to change my gears to make room for Math class. I need to clean the table but I also feel like today is the day I should boil the shrimp to make shrimp sandwiches.

I've made my way to the couch. I am not sure why I came here. I was doing math at the table and I came towards the tv for some reason. Actually I was walking towards my work computer.

I guess I wanted to put something on the todo list. I decided to let math eat up the art day. I am hoping I will have time to do art in the future but, I might have to also prepare for the possibility that, I won't have time for it at all. I guess I have to be ok with that.

It is just a simple thing of copying the back of the book, but I feel some trepidation with it.

I woke up at 12 am and figured I need to just boil a bunch of tea and work through the night to at least get half of my math homework done.

I am mostly just copying the answers from the back of the book but, for the tests I really need to know how to do these things so, I need proper time to study.

I know they say that ChatGPT is no good but, since Reo opened my eyes to it and he has a masters, I am going to figure that using it a bit and responsibly is fine.

It is 2am now and I need to do my homework. I guess I just got to do at least the first one. The second one might need to wait until after math classes today.

I don't know why but I might just be trying hard right now just to submit this story. I think more than anything, I do just want to express myself.