Word of the Day: 推し

I am not putting any more time on my timer right now. I am just trying to get by here. There is almost no point to school because, like 35% of the time is technical difficulties and the rest of the time is things that actually aren't really useful.

Well I guess the useful thing about everyone lying is that actually no one really means anything so, you don't have to worry about consequences at that point. I mean, where do you draw the line in lying?

I have given up on trying to figure out anything. I just have my Todo list and my vocal. That is all I have to do, then I will go home and actually rest I guess.

I got some food in me so I am pretty happy about that. I need to start actually adding my list to Anki but I feel like that is sort of useless. I mean I don't think it is actually the keeping vocabulary. I do need to actually save some of my paper for assignments thought. Sad as it is, keeping the vocab is actually just a side project as far as the school and everything.

The thing is actually, we've run out of things to talk and think about because most of everything we do is input. We have become really efficient at absorbing information but we have no idea what to do with it. And even if we did know what to do with it, we are too inundated with information to function.

At least my writing has become a bit more stable in this building. I don't really have anything to talk or do though so I am just updating this journal. I mean I might as well try to channel at this point because it would be better than nothing.

I unfortunately don't even have the energy for that though. I am just hanging on by a thread. I guess it can't be helped since I did have a rough time last night.

I just want to say I am tired of everything. Ah I guess Nam, would be the one to actually care, maybe? I have no idea. I don't really remember what human interaction is anymore. I mean it is hard enough as it is.

I don't even want to take out all my paperwork right now, it feels too much to do right now.

I want to take a nap soon, but it is hard. This is not a comfy seat and I have liike only maybe 2 hours until class. But I think I need to sleep here then I can participate in class a bit enough to do homework I guess.

Well, I have 15 minutes on my timer. I guess I could figure out some stuff to do now. Maybe I could do the Japanese Homework. This table is sort of small though, I might need to move to a larger one so I can have

speak.

Interesting. I guess if I am being completely honest. I am just in school to sort of pass the time until my expungement takes place, then hopefully I can leave to another place. Until then, I don't know what I am doing right now.

Yea I guess I should have got something with more caffeine. I didn't want to overdo it though because I had such a crazy night.

I still haven't found my labradorite yet.

I feel like a sleepy squirrel in its little tree hole. I have just been yawning so much right now it is crazy. I need sleep.