Word of the Day: 芯

I am getting a lot of psychic hits today for some reason, I mean there is a lot of synchronicities happening. I am also worried about Monday but, I think it will be fine.

I have a lot of energy today for some reason so, I feel like cleaning is probably the best use of that excess of energy. I think I just want to get ahead of my Todo list and sort of go from there.

My vision is really blurring today so I can't really see anything. I am sort of considering maybe getting laser surgery in the future. I would like to have my vision back.

I don't have an appointment with any doctor for that right now but I guess I got to schedule it. I'll be honest, it sort of scares me because, I don't want to be completely blind. I know it is only a small percentage chance that would result in that, and if that were the case, I could sue them for malpractice.

I have " Update Jan " on my Appointments. I am sort of hesitant on that. I don't have to worry about it right now but, I am sort of debating pushing it off even more. I am just thinking that is something that can be done remotely.

I also have an appointment with Thomas so, I am trying to figure out how to prepare for that. I mean, I guess I have to just pack for two so, that is about it. I am so glad I keep everything concise like this. To be honest, I feel really... well not so stressed as much as excited, because I am proud of my own movements and I think that is usually the sign of a good thing.

I am really making progress so it is good. I sort of wanted an Amethyst Wand.

I got to just chill for a bit, I mean I don't know want to go into a class room I actually didn't prepare for. I mean, I brought my Turkish books, but this is modern Turkish. Also the Ottoman empire was only 200 years long? I mean, that's basically... post colonial history.

Yea, I have no idea about ingenious American history or language.

Hum...

I am more than content to just sit in my corner and learn Turkish, really.

I am trying to just figure out the PDF file... I feel fat and bloated because I am on my period. I just taste cucumbers for some reason.

I feel like I should leave this spot after I am writing this but, that would only give me like 30 minutes of class.

I am feeling just overwhelmed at the moment. Not emotionally but just work wise. I am having to use my phone for Wi-Fi... I am just annoyed.

I forgot my hand lotion so that makes it a bit difficult for me. My hands just feel unbearably dry.

I will leave once I finish writing this page though.

It will be ridiculous either way so, I am just trying to be myself as much as possible. Ooo suddenly root chakra music is playing. I guess that is a good thing.

I will probably freshen myself up in the bathroom a little before that, but I might not have time. Yea... I ran out of time to do anything. But, I won't give up writing. This is the least I can do that I can't see anymore.

I... feel vulnerable I guess. That's probably why I am not in class and just hanging out at the library.