Word of the Day: やらせ

I am really annoyed for some reason. I guess it's a lingering effect of talking to my mom. I think I am also annoyed because I ordered food, like I am hungry so probably my emotions are heighted so I am hoping I'll calm down after I eat food.

But the more I am thinking about it, the more I am thinking I do need to find another assistant, but I don't really have any time to do that. My list is booked like 4 days in advanced. I mean, I guess i could add it to the list but it won't be dealt with until then. Maybe that is what is making me annoyed too because, I want to jump ahead to where I can just get rid of my mom completely from my life, but I am not at that point yet so, I am having to deal with what I am having to deal with for now.

I am happy though with my system. I feel like it is finally just enough to keep my productive without overwhelming me. But if I really think about it, I probably was only overwhelmed in the past because I was living with my mom.

I do feel like reaching out to other people right now, but at tIhe same time, I have been talking to a lot of people and again, my "Appointments/Calls is booked out until Wednesday so I have technically talked to enough people right now.

I do wind down on Hellotalk, that is sort of my socializing. I enjoy it and I actually found a new room with nice people inside it so, I feel like it is a good place to be. A lot of rooms are sort of dead and there is no chemistry between people but I felt like we all got along really well today and it was very easy to talk to the people. It is a rare thing in my life, people usually make me feel like I crazy or something, so I am happy I could actually have some sort of interesting conversation.

I also don't have my vision still; Jahon broke my glasses, and I accidentally forgot to put contact solution with my last pair of contacts. I ordered more but they won't be in for 2 weeks.

I mean, I guess I am just waiting for those really but, I have my Todo list and Scheduler to help me pass the time and keep me productive.

I randomly turned on Toonami reruns on Youtube. I never really watched Gundam but, it is interesting. I mean not the story but the animation ( from what I can see ) was really smooth and dynamic. I can see why a lot of little boys ( and girls ) liked it so much.

Since it is starting from somewhere in the middle, I have no idea what's going on, but apparently a little blonde boy is like " We got to kill this whole base, it is shit. " On some sort of PTSD absolutist bullshit. The brunette is like, " Bruh, I am going to save them. We don't have to have a freak out like this. Peace is soon in our grasp if you'd just be flexible. "

Then everyone is like... I am going to kill you! ( Spider man meme )

Then some 80's-90's musical interlude.

Yea I am tired of describing what I am hearing streaming from the TV.

I am just wanting to get rid of my annoyance with my mom but it is hard to do.