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My Year of Grief and Cancelation. . Content Warning.
I am standing in this room wondering what comes now. I know I have to help her but I just don’t know how. All the times I’ve been told about the way her illness goes but the truth of it is no one really knows. Every day the act gets more and more absurd. All of the fear that sits inside me screaming to be heard. I know they won’t though not a single word. I was there at her side. When she called When she cried. How could she leave me here alone? Will she stay sober this time, there is no way to be sure but I’m weary to the bone. Whenever she goes “flying” I keep both feet firmly on the ground. Now I need some help and there is no one around. I never had to face life without her at my side. Now I’m walking right beside her as a black hole opens wide. Mine is just a slower death. I’ve been there for every high and every low but it’s the worst it’s ever been. she’s been hurt but I can’t give up now. Cause I have never been alone.
By Nat 3 years ago in Confessions
Early in the morning. Content Warning.
Early in the morning, with the sound of the falling rain, I came to the window, through the window looked out, the sky fluttering rain, this is the first spring rain ah! Facing the spring rain point I walk in the garden, see the spring rain, fluttering and sprinkling, make the winter jasmine, peach blossom unexpectedly open, golden, pink... The petals were pressed together. You see, even the small wild flowers on the roadside are not willing to lag behind! It stretches its branches and leaves, blooming in the rain with fresh beauty. The small frog that slept for a winter, at this time I do not know where to drill out, the small eyes turn around, as if to tell us: spring is coming, spring is coming! Suddenly, "Boom, boom...." Woah! Spring thunder sounded, this spring thunder brother told me that he wanted to dance with spring rain, dancing rain instantly became coarse, rain also became rapid, a long lost spring rain for the earth to wash away the dust deposited throughout the winter. After the spring rain, I smell the direction of the soil, the air is so fresh, refreshing, comfortable! The grass, the flowers, and the trees all straightened their backs, proudly, as if to say: "I am the most beautiful, but also the most fragrant, no one can compare with me!" "One tall and upright. Under the misty spring rain, it green the willows by the river, red peach blossoms by the village, nourishing all things full of vitality.I like to look at the lotus flower, whenever I see the lotus flower that full of the sense of fullness of the petals, I can not help but think, what will be inside? Today, and early out of the door, to see the lotus, when I was small, I saw yesterday in full bloom of a lotus, today is missing, I am curious, along the flower pool carefully, I found in yesterday the lotus is still standing place, actually grew a tender, fragile lotus seeds! I carefully took it off, it is still small, the skin is golden, as if with a touch of the hand can be its skin off, I took it away, I thought, what will be it, I put it. When the skin is peeled off, I see a green shell inside, and I plant this shell again, Exposed inside the small fruit, in the mouth to taste, a little bitter, also a little sweet, later, from the mouth of others, this thing called lotus seeds, has a high medicinal value: lotus seeds have calm, strong heart, anti-aging, anti-tumor effect, which is rich in calcium, phosphorus and potassium, in addition to the bone of the tooth components, but also to promote coagulation, make certain enzymes active, maintain nerve transmission Conduction, sedation, maintenance of muscle flexibility and heart rhythm. I can't think of lotus seeds have so high medicinal value, since then, I prefer to eat lotus seeds, nature is really a magician, for human beings to create such a good thing!Open the skylight, write loneliness, look up at the stars, see only your raised mouth and blurred eyes, stars and meteors are covered by your appearance, the love of the Big Dipper can only become your companion. In this way, quietly watching the moon climb up, unaware that the memory of the solo has quietly begun. That summer, seems to be in order to meet you and tailor-made for me, at that time I was young and frivolous, confident to conceit, but in the moment I saw your smile, I understand that in the young battlefield, I was captured. We are all the same, all the same innocent children. So, you and I became best friends. We fantasize together, fantasize dance moonlight, it is the opinion how romantic thing, we are sad together, sad legend of the dragon scale in the sun radiation back to burn our eyes. However, how can the most beautiful sun, how can have the world, you will finally put me alone together in the friendship of this beautiful but full of hardships on the road. After tomorrow, go back to the past, everything goes back to the wind. Clearly said not to go, but just because of a sentence if love, why together, you will no longer free from my world, leaving me standing at the crossroads, looking at you through the crowd of the back, but tears. The miracle of love is thus a lie. Keep humming our song. My world, you have become clouds and rain, full of memories of friends, only the pale flower handkerchief is still flying in the wind. As early as the moment you turned around, you found a gorgeous excuse for yourself - rumors have a thousand decibels. I chose to forget.
By Kerry hunter3 years ago in Confessions
Mental horror of physical scars. Content Warning.
Hello beautiful souls This story began four years ago when my late teenage years were plagued by the onset of acne. At first, I dismissed the breakouts as a temporary inconvenience, assuming they would fade away with time. However, as the months went by, my acne worsened, transforming into a painful and relentless condition known as cystic acne. This inflammatory type caused deep, pus-filled pimples that seemed to take root beneath my skin. It became apparent that I had to take this issue seriously, but by then, it felt like it was too late.
By Ruby sath3 years ago in Confessions
Replace your stress by a calm mind . Content Warning.
A many times agone , I broke into my own house. I had just driven home, it was around night in the nothingness of Montreal downtime, I had been visiting my friend, Jeff, across city, and the thermometer on the frontal veranda read minus 40 degrees-- and do not bother asking if that is Celsius or Fahrenheit, minus 40 is where the two scales meet-- it was veritably cold. And as I stood on the frontal veranda fumbling in my pockets, I set up I did not have my keys. In fact, I could see them through the window, lying on the dining room table where I had left them. So I snappily ran around and tried all the other doors and windows, and they were locked tight. I allowed about calling a locksmith-- at least I had my cellphone, but at night, it could take a while for a locksmith to show up, and it was cold. I could not go back to my friend Jeff's house for the night because I had an early flight to Europe the coming morning, and I demanded to get my passport and my wallet. So, hopeless and nipping cold wave, I set up a large gemstone and I broke through the basement window, cleared out the shards of glass, I crawled through, I set up a piece of cardboard and taped it up over the opening, figuring that in the morning, on the way to the field, I could call my contractor and ask him to fix it. This was going to be precious, but presumably no more precious than a middle- of- the- night locksmith, so I figured, under the circumstances, I was coming out indeed. Now, I am a neuroscientist by training and I know a little bit about how the brain performs under stress. It releases cortisol that raises your heart rate, it modulates adrenaline situations and it clouds your thinking. So the coming morning, when I woke up on too little sleep, fussing about the hole in the window, and a internal note that I had to call my contractor, and the nipping temperatures, and the meetings I had forthcoming in Europe, and, you know, with all the cortisol in my brain, my thinking was cloudy, but I did not know it was cloudy because my thinking was cloudy. And it was not until I got to the field check- in counter, that I realized I did not have my passport. So I contended home in the snow and ice, 40 twinkles, got my passport, contended back to the field, I made it just in time, but they had given away my seat to someone differently, so I got stuck in the reverse of the aeroplane, coming to the bathrooms, in a seat that wouldn't slope, on an eight- hour flight. Well, I had a lot of time to suppose during those eight hours and no sleep. And I started wondering, are there effects that I can do, systems that I can put into place, that will help bad effects from passing? Or at least if bad effects be, will minimize the liability of it being a total catastrophe. So I started allowing about that, but my studies did not solidify until about a month latterly. I was having regale with my coworker, Danny Kahneman, the Nobel Prize winner, and I kindly embarrassedly told him about having broken my window, and, you know, forgotten my passport, and Danny participated with me that he would been rehearsing commodity called prospective hindsight. It's commodity that he'd gotten from the psychologist Gary Klein, who had written about it a many times before, also called thepre-mortem. Now, you all know what the posthumous is. Whenever there is a disaster, a platoon of experts come by and they try to figure out what went wrong, right? Well, in thepre-mortem, Danny explained, you look ahead and you try to figure out all the effects that could go awry, and also you try to figure out what you can do to help those effects from passing, or to minimize the damage. So what I want to talk to you about moment are some of the effects we can do in the form of apre-mortem. Some of them are egregious, some of them aren't so egregious. I will start with the egregious bones . Around the home, designate a place for effects that are fluently lost. Now, this sounds like common sense, and it is, but there is a lot of wisdom to back this up, grounded on the way our spatial memory workshop. There is a structure in the brain called the hippocampus, that evolved over knockouts of thousands of times, to keep track of the locales of important effects-- where the well is, where fish can be set up, that stage of fruit trees, where the friendly and adversary lines live. The hippocampus is the part of the brain that in London cab motorists becomes enlarged. It's the part of the brain that allows squirrels to find their nuts. And if you are wondering, notoriety actually did the trial where they cut off the olfactory sense of the squirrels, and they could still find their nuts. They were not using smell, they were using the hippocampus, this exquisitely evolved medium in the brain for chancing effects. But it's really good for effects that do not move around much, not so good for effects that move around. So this is why we lose auto keys and reading spectacles and passports. So in the home, designate a spot for your keys-- a hook by the door, perhaps a ornamental coliseum. For your passport, a particular hole. For your reading spectacles, a particulartable.However, your effects will always be there when you look for them, If you designate a spot and you are scrupulous about it. What about trip? Take a cell phone picture of your credit cards, your motorist's license, your passport, correspondence it to yourself so it's in thecloud.However, you can grease relief, If these effects are lost or stolen. Now these are some rather egregious effects. Flash back, when you are under stress, the brain releases cortisol. Cortisol is poisonous, and it causes cloudy thinking. So part of the practice of thepre-mortem is to fete that under stress you are not going to be at your stylish, and you should put systems in place. And there is maybe no more stressful a situation than when you are brazened with a medical decision to make. And at some point, all of us are going to be in that position, where we've to make a veritably important decision about the future of our medical care or that of a loved one, to help them with a decision. And so I want to talk about that. And I am going to talk about a veritably particular medical condition. But this stands as a deputy for all kinds of medical decision- timber, and indeed for fiscal decision- timber, and social decision- timber-- any kind of decision you have to make that would profit from a rational assessment of the data. So suppose you go to your croaker and the croaker says," I just got your lab work back, your cholesterol's a little high." Now, you all know that high cholesterol is associated with an increased threat of cardiovascular complaint, heart attack, stroke. And so you are allowing having high cholesterol is not the stylish thing, and so the croaker says," You know, I'd like to give you a medicine that will help you lower your cholesterol, a statin." And you've presumably heard of statins, you know that they are among the most extensively specified medicines in the world moment, you presumably indeed know people who take them. And so you are allowing," Yeah! Give me the statin." But there is a question you should ask at this point, a statistic you should ask for that most croakers do not like talking about, and pharmaceutical companies like talking about indeed lower. It's for the number demanded to treat. Now, what's this, the NNT? It's the number of people that need to take a medicine or suffer a surgery or any medical procedure before one person is helped. And you are allowing, what kind of crazy statistic is that? The number should be one. My croaker wouldn't define commodity to me if it's not going to help. But actually, medical practice does not work that way. And it's not the croaker 's fault, if it's anybody's fault, it's the fault of scientists like me. We have not figured out the underpinning mechanisms well enough. But GlaxoSmithKline estimates that 90 percent of the medicines work in only 30 to 50 percent of the people. So the number demanded to treat for the most extensively specified statin, what do you suppose it is? How numerous people have to take it before one person is helped? 300. This is according to exploration by exploration interpreters Jerome Groopman and Pamela Hartzband, singly verified byBloomberg.com. I ran through the figures myself. 300 people have to take the medicine for a time before one heart attack, stroke or other adverse event is averted. Now you are presumably allowing," Well, OK, one in 300 chance of lowering my cholesterol. Why not, croaker? Give me the tradition anyway." But you should ask at this point for another statistic, and that is," Tell me about the side goods." Right? So for this particular medicine, the side goods do in five percent of the cases. And they include terrible effects-- enervating muscle and joint pain, gastrointestinal torture-- but now you are allowing," Five percent, not veritably likely it's going to be to me, I will still take the medicine." But stay a nanosecond. Flash back under stress you are not allowing easily. So suppose about how you are going to work through this ahead of time, so you do not have to manufacture the chain of logic on the spot. 300 people take the medicine, right? One person's helped, five percent of those 300 have side goods, that is 15 people. You are 15 times more likely to be harmed by the medicine than you're to be helped by the medicine. Now, I am not saying whether you should take the statin or not. I am just saying you should have this discussion with your croaker . Medical ethics requires it, it's part of the principle of informed concurrence. You have the right to have access to this kind of information to begin the discussion about whether you want to take the pitfalls or not. Now you might be allowing I have pulled this number out of the air for shock value, but in fact it's rather typical, this number demanded to treat. For the most extensively performed surgery on men over the age of 50, junking of the prostate for cancer, the number demanded to treat is 49. That is right, 49 surgeries are done for every one person who is helped. And the side goods in that case do in 50 percent of the cases. They include incompetence, erectile dysfunction, urinary incontinence, rectal tearing, fecal incontinence. And if you are lucky, and you are one of the 50 percent who has these, they'll only last for a time or two. So the idea of thepre-mortem is to suppose ahead of time to the questions that you might be suitable to ask that will push the discussion forward. You do not want to have to manufacture all of this on the spot. And you also want to suppose about effects like quality of life. Because you have a choice hourly, do you I want a shorter life that is pain-free, or a longer life that might have a great deal of pain towards the end? These are effects to talk about and suppose about now, with your family and your loved ones You might change your mind in the heat of the moment, but at least you are rehearsed with this kind of thinking. Flash back, our brain under stress releases cortisol, and one of the effects that happens at that moment is a whole bunch on systems shut down.
By Asmae El assri3 years ago in Confessions
why girls think that they are ugly . Content Warning.
As a woman, I am tired of the narrow standards of beauty that are imposed on us. The media often portrays the ideal image for black girls as having light skin and long hair, which does not reflect the reality of many of us. Personally, I am brown-skinned, curvy, and have a flat butt. I remember hearing someone describe me in a negative way, focusing on the attributes I didn't have. However, this experience taught me an important lesson - to love myself for who I am and not to let someone else's opinion determine my value. That's why I started my own cosmetic company six years ago, with the aim of changing the way we think about beauty. I was frustrated that society only looked at attractiveness through a single lens, and I wanted to challenge that. When you search for "beauty" today, you'll see a sea of fair-skinned, thin, young women, as if good looks only come in one form. This narrow view of beauty makes us feel like we're not enough, and we start to think that we're lacking in some way. This lack of confidence can hold us back from pursuing our dreams and reaching our full potential. It also affects how we view others - if we don't feel good enough, we may project that insecurity onto our sisters, friends, and cousins. For too long, women have been told that our value is directly linked to our looks, our ability to get married, and our ability to have children. Even today, we still see this idea perpetuated in every industry - from Serena Williams dominating on the tennis court to Hillary Clinton running for President. We also see it in the way that little girls are discriminated against for their hairstyles. For example, a little girl in Louisiana wasn't allowed to attend school because of her braided hairstyle, which is a long-standing part of African and African-American beauty culture. This kind of discrimination is unacceptable - our hairstyle doesn't prevent us from learning or succeeding in any way. So, what is attractiveness? Shouldn't it be subjective? While it's true that what we find attractive is influenced by our environment, there is a dangerous trend towards a global standard of beauty that is rooted in Western ideals. This standard leaves many women feeling invalidated, unwanted, or too old to be beautiful. It also affects men - many are conditioned to find women who look like their mothers attractive, perpetuating a narrow view of beauty. It's time to challenge these narrow standards and embrace diversity in all its forms. At my cosmetic company, we celebrate diversity and aim to create products that work for everyone, regardless of skin tone or body type. We want to redefine what beauty means and empower women to love themselves for who they are. By doing so, we can create a world where everyone feels valued and appreciated, regardless of how they look.
By Asmae El assri3 years ago in Confessions
The Heartache of Empty
Hunger is a global crisis that affects millions of people, yet its emotional impact often goes unnoticed. Beyond the physical pain and suffering, hunger takes a tremendous toll on individuals, families, and communities, leaving lasting emotional scars. This article delves into the depths of this emotional aspect, highlighting the human stories behind the statistics and shedding light on the heartache of empty stomachs.
By solomon Christian3 years ago in Confessions
The Unfathomable Love of God: Embracing an Endless Affection
Introduction: Love is a profound and universal emotion that touches the core of our being. Among the countless expressions of love that exist in the world, the love of God stands unparalleled. It is an extraordinary force that knows no boundaries, defies human comprehension, and transcends the limitations of time and space. In this article, we embark on a journey to explore the immeasurable and boundless love of God, seeking to understand its nature and significance in our lives.
By Faith 3 years ago in Confessions
Plant Power
Introduction In a world grappling with health challenges and a growing awareness of the impact of dietary choices, vegan diets have emerged as a transformative force. Beyond being a dietary trend, veganism is a powerful lifestyle choice that has the potential to revolutionize lives and enhance overall well-being. Join us as we delve into the intriguing world of vegan diets and explore the ways in which they are transforming lives and promoting optimal health.
By Joan gobana3 years ago in Confessions
What was she thinking about before?
It was five years ago when I married a young woman, despite the significant age gap between us. Our love was genuine, and a year into our marriage, we were blessed with a beautiful daughter. At that time, I was at the peak of my career, leading a prominent company, and dedicating countless hours to my work. Traveling for business became a regular occurrence, but I reveled in it, as I truly loved what I did, not to mention the handsome income it provided.
By Nataliya Vdovenko3 years ago in Confessions
Father's Day : A Heartwarming Tribute to Families.
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By Babatounde Chitou3 years ago in Confessions
My Greatest Challenge
Over the past two months, the simple act of showering has become an uphill task. Deep down, I'm well aware that stepping into that stream of water releases a flood of feel-good hormones, offering a temporary refuge from the weight of the world.
By Esther Nduta3 years ago in Confessions
