Step One: Try

I should start this off saying that I really don’t have a plan or structured instructions on how I want to contribute to this cause. This entry will double as a scientific experiment to help me realize this theory that I am adequate to succeed in whatever I wish to take a shot at. I hope this hypotenuse keeps getting its support too because if it does that would mean I would have my guideline to the 2022 kindness DIY and have some kind of documented and physical tool I can use when it comes to being this to fruition. The most important thing and also hardest for me is to begin. I’m so afraid of failure that I’ve hindered my potential to leave an impact by not giving myself the chance to fail. I found myself only participating in things where I had already done immense homework and scenario trials in my mind so I would avoid any feelings of disappointment or inferiority. All I know is I want widespread and permanent happiness more than anything. To say that my life or journey has been difficult is comical and couldn’t be further from the truth compared to the horrors and injustice that others have had to endure. But that doesn’t mean I dont know what pain feels like. And oddly enough I’m glad I have hurt the way I have. Because by feeling pain, I have learned more than just what it feels like. I know what it looks like. I know what it sounds like. I think I even know what it smells like too. But I’m all senses, it is the absolute worst. It’s more heartbreaking to see it in others than to feel it yourself. It’s brought me to a point where I do anything I can to help anyone avoid it if it’s possible. Ten times out of ten I would hurt and take away other peoples pain if that somehow was an option with any situation. I see this as one of the very few strengths I possess, though it might not even be seen as a strength by most. Ive learned that there might have been an upside or reason as to why I’m a little bit more sensitive to everything and let myself be hurt by things that I shouldn’t have because of what it meant in the grand scheme of the things. It gave me this hidden faith that though I may be currently hurting, it will get better. It will heal. It is temporary. You will learn something from this pain. This is necessary for your life. This is still your path. This was always supposed to happen for you. Don’t lose sight of you. Lee your eyes forward. Time is the absolute most precious thing we have, especially time together. Don’t dwell on what you can’t change. But also don’t ignore your rear view mirror. Look back so you can remember what youve learned from any significant situation in your mind and do what you can to share it with anyone who might find themselves feeling similar or dealing with something similar. Sharing is caring and to love thy neighbor sometimes that’s all it takes. Insignificance is fictitious, the littlest of things can be monumental for others, sometimes a smile is all it takes to save a life. SMILE. That can be part of my dream on how to a build a kinder world. Hey Google, add smile more to my plan.