My love story

my love life started at a very young which I would say greatly affected me. I met this young handsome man in my first year in college he was in his third, we started off really great and thing we’re going smoothly not until he had to leave for another country, when he left I had this huge desire to explore I wanted to do the things we never did together to have more relationships and that desire was the beginning of my nightmare.

When the desire first started I thought of it as a phase in my life which will pass away with time but I never knew if was a fantasy I had which has just been unlocked, the thought of cheat had always disgusted me but all of a sudden that thought excited me. I started loosing feelings for my distanced boyfriend so quickly but I know how to hide things pretty well, then I started my issue with a very close friend of my(Stella). Stella is a kind of person who has experienced the ups and downs of relationships, she has been into all kinds of relationships and has done things I’ve never even thought of, after sharing my problem with her she adviced that I quench my desire by cheating on my partner but I should do that in secret, I thought to myself what an amazing advice it was.

I started hunting for the best person to fit in my fantasy, not so long into ny hunt I was in my friend’s dorm room when a friend of hers (Steve) knocked on the door, she asked him to come in and when he came in I felt this crazy connection between us, his eyes the way he stared at me, that moment I knew he was my fantasy, I wasn’t surprised when my friend told me Steve wants my number without hesitation I told her to give him .

Steve and I started our love story, I hid my distanced relationship from Steve because all I was thinking about was how to satisfy my desire without thinking of how Steve feels, we started off great. He was all caring and romantic in unlocked all the romantic parts in me my distanced partner never did, being with Steve made my so cold toward my distanced partner that he had to call my friends to ask what was going on with me but I guess I’m a very greedy person I never wanted to loose him or Steve so I lied and put all the blame on college he was a pretty calm person who loved me so much and he believed me without a doubt.

About a month into dating Steve I realized I never loved him I was only lusting over his physique because of my desperation so I ended things with him. He was in great pain, he did everything he could to get me back even when I confessed that I have a distanced relationship he still didn’t mind, that was the problem I didn’t want a good guy as I always get them I wanted a bad one, after breaking up with Steve I focused on my relationship and started loving my distanced partner again but I still wasn’t satisfied.

Out of desperation, I started attending night parties because I knew I’ll see my bad man there and truly I met my downfall, on a Friday night I went out to a night party, 30 minutes later a dark, tall guy with piercings and dimple on both cheeks came to me( immediately I felt a tingling sensation between my thighs). We hung out for a while before deciding to exchange ig handles, and that was my biggest regret.

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