Mom's Love Power

"Hey Mom. I never told you this before, but... you made me stronger than you think! There were times that I did not understand how you did so much to love me, and I did not realize that until I stopped going to the Boys & Girls Club. "Tia, I don't care if you are 18 or not, you're going to that Boys & Girls Club as long as you in my house." Those were the words you said. Confusion sunk in at that time not knowing why I could not go places after school or hang out with my friends. Little did I know that was protection from things that would throw me off track because you knew that I had dreams that could only be available to me if I stayed connected to the discipline instilled by your love. I love that she cared about how I proceeded in the world.

Yes, I got picked on for being so "old" as they say and still in "daycare." It was a confusing time then, but now a laughable and loveable moment. There I would learn all the things that sparked my interest. Hard work was the definition that I saw all around you and now I understand that you placed that discipline on me to help me become a better person. I remember you working long hours and was ecstatic when you appeared like a savior when it was time to go home. Rushing to you and glad to see you I always talked up a storm every day about the experiences that I had and the things I learned there at center. Yes, you were tired from providing for us and you knew that was the other way that you could help me reach full potential! You placed me in a good environment where I was able to understand myself more and discover the things that I ultimately like to do with my time.

Now that I am older, I understand that you were doing your part when it came to environmental statuses. Loving yourself and loving us more to be able to give us the opportunity to be children and have fun. For a long time, I had to understand that mommy had to work and as a child I did not understand that time was precious for adults. You instilled in me how to be strong and know that my environments would affect how I responded to my surroundings if I am not trained on how to see where I should be or shouldn't be. That was a part of strength that you gave me because now as I am older, I understand that my environment can affect my emotional, mental states. Back then it felt like I was not allowed to do anything that my friends were doing, but that was only protection from you. You were pushing me to find out what my talents were and to harness those talents like you did to become a great person like you are now. You found what made you happy when it came to your career and that was the only thing that you wanted for me at that time... to stay focus and find myself.

If that isn't love, then I do not know what to call that. It's actually better than love because when it boils down to the core, I am your child and you are Mom, who knew who I was before I did.

Love,

Your Grateful Daughter

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