How much is an Hour?

It is already 12:03. I wanted to leave the house an hour ago but I am having a hard time locating any of my clothes and I guess my mom isn't leaving the house today either so I am just stuck in the muck.

I am trying not to worry about that as much, I am pretty confident I will get my Human Tasks done regardless. I feel bad because it sort of makes some of the other stuff I was working on on the backburner.

I did look out of the window finally and found it is raining. It is just light, so I think it is still fine to walk with an umbrella. I don't know if walking the dog would be a good idea since she doesn't have a raincoat or something yet. Ah I guess she does have like a winter vest, I guess that could help.

I couldn't walk the dog because my mom was just sitting in the living room the whole day just binge watching Youtube or something. And she'd probably think I am being crazy. Like I am not free to do even the things I am physically able to do because, I've already been judge by my mom too much. I have even physically been kept from going out of the house just because I was wearing "skimpy" clothes. I am in my 30's. I think.. maybe I need to call some sort of caretaker place. Like she likes to brag, she is on Social Security. I need someone to keep her off me so I can actually go live my life. I mean, in my anger, I wish she'd die a lot. I feel like, she should've died those many times receiving surgery.

It would've been better for my life if she did.

I think I am not going to say my Human tasks anymore in this blog, I mean, I'll say I am doing my Human tasks but, I don't think specifying them is really beneficial to me, and I mean if there is something that needs to be thought out, I'll write about it. But it is not necessary to mention everything, I feel.

The ether was particularly trippy. I mean the increased level of people speaking tongues is odd. Makes me think the whole trying to be a polyglot is sort of ridiculous. Words happen eventually, whether they are correct or not.

I did want to clean the living room, I mean, I am not a dirty person actually. I mean, my mom has been to like 30+ music concerts over the years, and I was always the one who stayed home and cleaned the house.

I have been ho huming over not having enough gold in habitica to do what I like, but some of the ways I earn money is laughing and drink water so, I really don't have any excuse. I don't need to buy food if I am drinking water constantly. Also since I am having a headache, water is probably the more logical thing to consume at this time.

I think I am spiritually sick because I've been dealing with too many people. But, I feel like, if I am going to be working somewhere else, I am going to have to get used to having this energy flow through me. Or perhaps it is sort of like a form of travel sickness.

My Jasper came up back up on the notifications. He was such a pretty boy. Smelled like Jasmine perfume...

I have two choices, I feel one is very much running away, and the other one is falling into a pit.