Maintaining

As most of you know, I have these things called "Human Tasks".

Basically I make sure to get at least 4 things I need to do done a day. I don't put anything i consider work or lucrative in there as that is its own thing. It is usually something that requires me to leave the house or, is necessary to progress in life in some sort of way so, appointments and what not.

I created this a way to get stuff done and also not to overwhelm myself on any given day. Usually if I do need to get more accomplished I will move it on to the next day, maintaining that each day has 4 things on the list. This is also useful for appointments and what not since, it isn't good to be double booked or anything like that.

Today's tasks are fairly simple luckily:

• Call Jan
• Buy weed
• Walk the dog
• Find Bottle drop bags

Calling Jan is going to be simple, hell I can do that while walking the dog. I could probably fit in buying weed during the walk as well so, that's killing 3 birds with one stone.

Finding the bottle drop bags are actually sort of harder since I am in the process of moving and things are displaced all over the house. But the collection of water bottles is growing and I would like to tidy up the place at least a little bit.

I sort of don't want to buy weed because I am quite enjoying my time being sober. But, I feel like the main reason I am considering it is for consistency and also because I am like severely itchy all over. I might take antihistamine to see if that helps, but if it doesn't at least weed will make me not think about it and calm the nerve endings.

Cold calling via Facebook dating app has had mixed results. Some people are just slamming the door shut on me in an extremely rude way, despite me being very frank on my profile that I am only looking for potential business partners and friends. I have also had people just kind of play dumb and attempt to flirt with me in extremely awkward ways.

I have though, encountered some people who were more sincere but just do to circumstances, weren't quite ready and had things to figure out. I feel pretty good about those interactions though, it leaves me to continue my search and work on projects in the meantime.

I do appreciate some people asking me about more creative goals, which is in fact more in line with my interests but, I am a human at the end of the day and I am not going to be coerced into doing anything for free anymore unless it actually sparks joy in me.

Even as I am writing this now, I have decided to just post my articles to people asking more about myself as sort of a scripting of my life.

Since it is written by me, it is me answering them, they are just benefitting me if I utilize it like this.

I think that I'm probably going to head out of the house around 10:20 though. I can't stand this itchiness and I think walking outside will also help with destressing from all of this. Perhaps even the cold air will help with the itching.

People have offered to take me out to eat but, I mean that doesn't interest me at all. I am already fat and I am not really interested in sharing a meal with someone who will most likely waste my time. Perhaps it is the stress talking... I guess I should sort of open up my human tasks to possibly receiving meet ups. Bleh, I don't like the idea but I'll consider it.