Heartbreak is sh*t, falling in love is not

Hello hello, how are you ?

You know, we as humans experience a lot of different emotions throught our life. One of those emotions is love and his twin sibiling heartbreak.

Roughly 3 months ago I had my heart broken. Fun, I know. I was talking with this boy I liked and discover that while he was talking to me he was also talking with other girl that is now is girlfriend. So, that happened. Now, I never had my heartbroken this way, I had liked other people in the past, yes, but never had the guts to go and start conversation with them and showing them in a way that I was interested in them and receiving the same level of interest.

Why are you talking about this?

You are probably thinking “I dont really care about the failed love life of a random 21 year old girl on the internet” and honestly, same. However this whole situation made me think. I was expecting to go through different stages, anger, then sadness, acceptance, being dramatic and swearing that I will never trust anyone again, etc. That didn’t happen. We had anger, then acceptance and finished with ignoring the guy because he doesn’t deserve my attention.

And shockingly enough, Im excited to fall in love again.

I’m sorry, you what ?

Hear me out, getting my heartbroken wasn’t fun, at all. But falling in love was. Smiling each time I saw his name pop up in my notification bar, getting excited knowing that I was going to see him in person, talking to him in person and then asking my friends if I was the only one that noticed that he was looking at me differently, over-analizing his texts, and getting all happy when people would ask if we had something going on and just that heart-warming buzzing feeling.

So, yes, even though that I still need to heal and take a rest before falling in love I’m pretty excited to feel all that again.

How did you do it?

Like Taylor Swift said “state the obvious I didn’ get my perfect fantasy” (Picture To Burn).

The first step was people around me feeling the same level of betrayal that I felt “what do you mean that he is going to ask other girl to be his girlfriend? He was all over you last week!”

The second step was making sure that I wasn’t delusional, a very important step, because knowing that I wasn’t alucinating and that yes he was feeling something and I wasn’t seeing things was very much appreciated.

Third step, not comparing myself to his girlfriend and making her the enemy. Did I found his girlfriend instagram on the same day that he gave me her name? Yes. Did my friend follow her so we could see her profile better? Also, yes. The conclusion that I had? She looks very sweet and could find a better guy ( I’m not gonna lie to you, people telling me that I was prettier that her help a bit). But the point is, the same way that I didn’t know she existed, she also doesn’t know that I exist.

Fourth and last step. I know my damn worth. I’m very aware that I was going to be an awesome girlfriend. If he couldn’t see that it’s sounds like a personal problem to me and I’m not responsible for that.

So?

This is going to sound like an advice that a grandma would give but here it goes. Just fall in love. Yes, it may lead to heartbreak but it’s such a good feeling to just share love.

See ya peeps.

JP