Does Vocal use "Link" ?

I changed my payment method recently on Vocal and I got an email about Vocal now using Link rather than Stripe? If anyone knows if that is true, please let me know so I know whether I need to report it or leave it alone.

Anyway, looking at my workbook again, it has landed on Upwork. I need to make a video for my service but it is like.... I look like utter shit.. I mean the alternative would be sort of video editing some sort of more graphic video. It does take time but that might be the way to go for now. I don't need my looks being a detriment to me right now.

Apparently it costs 24 dollars for me to download the stupid Ai video I created so... ok let's just put that on the back burner. Hopefully the link maintains the video that was created and it doesn't just auto generate a new one. I guess it doesn't matter It is Ai anyway. That disappoints me in itself, to lower myself to that but, it is what it is.

Next on my list is to do my daily prayer which involves writing down all the bad stuff in my life then burning the paper, but since my family thinks I am crazy whenever I do anything, I have to skip that as well. Basically they rather me carry all the negativity in my body and grow old and ugly than me to do something constructive. Anyway, I don't really have paper to utilize at the moment so, I will just consider finding paper to be my goal for the moment.

Ah, apparently the video is too long. Maybe I don't need a video, a video would be good but it is like, how am I supposed to edit this ai video?

I found a great way to get emails for my Google Fi Refferal link, school directories! They have long lists of all the teacher's emails so, it is actually the best way to just streamline sending them the link.

I mean I am glad I have something productive to spend my time with this evening but, while I am listening to this tarot card reading.. about love, I am wondering.. what do I want anymore? I mean, I remember what my little personal list was before:

• Looks like Nat Thewphaignam or Alexander Rybak
• Kind voice
• Acts of Service sort of love style
• Nice hands ( Natthew's hands are a good example )
• Little quirky/silly
• Someone I can be comfortable around (it's called iyashi-kei in japanese )
• Maybe spiritual? Or enjoys sort of silly out-of-the-box conversations like that.

Ah, I don't know why but my mind went to when I was with Yuuichirou.. I always wanted that Filipino open-style kitchen and I felt like I manifested it with him at his house, haha!

I don't like modern/western cabinets, I like the " everything on display " sort of look. This is coming from someone who doesn't often dream of interior design. Maybe.. maybe because I never thought I'd get what I want..

Even though I am constantly focused on money right now, I am actually not that materialistic. I feel like, if I had money, or when I do have money, I always put it into education or some sort of business idea... With Pixie Road, I bootstrapped the thing, tried my best to pay everyone while working like a dog. I feel bad I don't have anything to show for it but, I mean... I guess looking at my own actions, my own endeavors... I guess I got to ignore all these people making me feel lesser than. I know that there is a certain self sabotage in that. I know when I am too concerned with what people think, I end up being the worst version of myself.

I need to realize that I am at least worth my dreams, or... I think the best way to express my self love right now, is not to give them up to the world.

Simple joys, you know?