Dear Mother

Hi Mom I know its been a year since you left us, and that your in a better place now free from all the pain and suffering that your life endured. I know the odds were stacked against you raising Allie and me all alone, coping with your physical and mental disabilities, and dealing with the sad fact that the rest of our family considered you a black sheep because of circumstances out of your control.

Well Mom I wanted you to know that deep down inside I always knew that you cared about Allie and I, and that you did everything in your power to provide for us. I know often one of your personalities or another would instill in you self doubt about how good of a parent you were, and I want you to know that those thoughts were all wrong you were the best mother a son could ask for, and I love you for it.

I also wanted you to know Mom that despite how much you tried to hide your suffering I always knew deep down that you wanted to shield us from your darker personalities and the pain you endured on a daily basis, and I guess I bring it up because you didn't have too. That's why I always strived to help out around the apartment, and why I wanted a job as soon as I could get one. Ultimately Mom I wanted you to know that I wanted to ease your pain and suffering, I wanted to protect you and provide a life for you where you could achieve your dreams.

After all under the circumstances we always took care of one another and helped each other grow and improve, so as a reward for all your sacrifices and strife I wanted to be the best son you could ever ask for. It's a shame that fate introduced Cancer into your life on top of everything else you already had endured. I'm sorry you suffered so much, but I hope that the time we spent while you were on your death bed was able to bring you some peace.

As you requested Mom Allie and I arranged a celebration of life for you where we pooled together all the family and friends who wished to celebrate your life and all you overcame. It's difficult writing this to you mother because I still miss you so very much, and I have so much I wish to share with you.

Like for example Mom the novel I started while in high school is to page 284 with 45 working on 46 chapters. On top of that I found a girl who I love so very much who understands me on the same level that you and I understood one another. I would have loved for you to meet her she's great. I also adopted a puppy by the name of Kai Mom, and I'm sure you would have loved him too.

The animals you left behind are still in good hands, of which Yoda the youngest of them all still misses you dearly. Dusty is still about the same being his fluffy chinchilla self, and Allie has been doing her best to watch over Skinny and Pierre. Beyond the animals Cory, Tim, Cousin Doug, Cousin Luke, and pretty much everyone else misses you too.

You touched so many lives Mom being the best version of you this world could ask for with your kind and compassionate heart. Mom I hope all is going good for you where you are now, and it pains me to say this, but unfortunately this is goodbye with much love until we meet again.

Sincerely Your Loving Son

-James Micheal D'Amato