Tufti the Empress
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Believer of taking leaps of faith, dip your toe outside your comfort zone. Composer of ones own reality. Student of inner wisdom, being authentic. Living with Love, Gratitude, Belly Laughs.
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Coronavirus - An Opportunity to Self Reflect?
For the first time in a very loooong time, I am sitting quietly, alone, in my condo (that comes with a mortgage payment I now can't afford), in a state of desperation as a bar/lounge owner that is now shut down in the hopes of flattening the curve of the rate of infection of the brand new Coronavirus. A cascade of panic grips me, and I am going down the rabbit hole of OMFG, how am I going to pay the mountain of bills that had already piled up? I was already skating on thin financial ice, and this... This is going to push me over the edge to insolvency. And my beloved staff...How can I help them get through this? Why wasn't I smarter about these things? Didn't I do this for a living in my prior life? Where did all my financial skills go?? Why didn't I save more, why did I run for office, why did I buy the condo? Why why why? So much guilt and SMH moments, so many should haves and could haves... I've been torturing myself since the shutdown and we are only two days into the ban. There is three more weeks to go. Three weeks is a long time for a business with very small margins to get through. And that's if the virus is contained after these three weeks...
By Tufti the Empress6 years ago in Motivation
Oops I did it Again...
I did it again. Fell hard for a tall, handsome, eloquent, intelligent, athletic and gorgeous man, who made me feel like the center of the universe. This one I thought, was different. He was enlightened! He knew who Abraham Hicks was! He meditated and practiced yoga! He wasn’t afraid to look deep within himself and uncover core wounds! We discussed astral projection! Did he really say he was interested in my curiosity of quantum mechanics? From the moment we met, everything flowed so effortlessly. Our schedules allowed for us to spend incredible amounts of time together. And spend time together we did! Every spare moment we were meeting up. For coffee, for a drink, for a drive. If we had 15 free minutes in the middle of our hectic day, we would spend it together. It was all so magical. The way his beautiful sparkling blue eyes would stare at me. How beautiful he told me he found me. How he would hold me. How affectionate he was wherever we went. How he completely disarmed me by being so comfortable in his own skin. How comfortable he allowed me to feel to just be me, without any of the usual accoutrements of make-up, hair, padded bra, etc., the image I felt I had to put on everyday to feel accepted by society. And did I mention the sex? We made love for hours at a time. Finally, I thought, a man who really knew how to create a safe space for deep intimacy, so we could both let go. The word “love” fell out of our mouths so naturally. He told me I was the one. I told him he was the one. My heart was so full. Finally I thought, the piece de romantic resistance from all these years of kissing frogs...And then...
By Tufti the Empress6 years ago in Humans
