MeraBaid Kaur
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My Many Moms
Technically I was born to one woman but she had two sisters, a plethora of close cousins, and her mom all helping to raise me. A few years into my life I gained a step-mom too. Throughout my childhood, these women helped me learn and grow but that wasn't enough. As I became a legal adult there was a lot of learning left to do and I found several mother figures who helped me take the last leaps I needed to fully become me.
By MeraBaid Kaur5 years ago in Families
If I Could Restart My Love Life
My adolescent ideas: Divorce is bad, therefore you should wait to get married Kids shouldn't date, dating is for grown-ups Boys are stupid so I should just wait until they become men I should date people my age I should wait as long as possible to have sex My physical appearance is the most important part of attracting someone If someone is nice and asks me out directly I should say yes I shouldn't let anyone I like know I like them
By MeraBaid Kaur5 years ago in Humans
Trolling Memories
I am here beneath the blanket you smooth over, not seeing the small bump i occupy when you return at day’s end you’ll wonder why there are crumbs and coils of hair between your toes but you’ll never roll over to see that I am still here, unspeaking terrorizing in the only way I can stuck here in this place you carried me like a parasite on your traveling skin once I existed in a virginal state of old-growth forests as far as my barefeet could run and you came erasing all my hiding places so i hide right next to you now but the stroke keeps you confined to your side of the bed, your side of this world we share, and you’re quietly unaware of what I do at night while you’re hiding beneath the pure cotton sheets, the color of old blood, sitting there for the decades after I hid my head as you peeked and pulled neverminding my feigned erasure of myself my total stiffness, eyes tight conjuring the tale of sleeping beauty, and you offered a troll bridge I didn’t want to cross but since we’re here now I’ll take your place since you’ve forgotten where you
By MeraBaid Kaur5 years ago in Poets
dreams come true
I could have been lying on the carpet in April, in the goldenrod desert 5 months pregnant, the weight of my uterus tugging me into dusted, sweaty mini-naps, or I was sitting at the table next to my 2-year-old her fingers making red hearts on construction paper drifting to this vision of my in-utero offspring years later, in your lap beneath a magnolia tree, on a grassy hilltop, your skin a goldenrod mist, smile wide and dimpled, in that deep impression beneath your eye, mirrored in my older daughters' eyes but I didn't know you then, didn't know we'd spent several years in homeroom together, my late arrivals, sleepy head on your desk, never speaking of the lake in the woods hidden by the evergreens across my street where you wandered on foot, foolery, and fever and I wondered what lay past my peripheral, developing the pre-sight that led me to your profile when you returned from a khaki desert I could only pick up past a page held long beneath my thumbprint and I rode in on goldenrod dust armed with this sticky knowledge that I knew I'd need to share but never believed you'd believe my bouts with deja true but hope lands, guards ins and outs, didn't stumble this time.
By MeraBaid Kaur5 years ago in Poets
It's Safer To Be a Child Now Than In The Last Several Decades
Child abuse and neglect is an important topic. It's legal in the United States for parents to use corporal punishment, but not to physically abuse children. It's legal for children to do things on their own, but also...not, because there isn't a clear law on this...so where is the line?
By MeraBaid Kaur5 years ago in Families
Get it all on Paper
This is a picture of all the paperwork I had to sign after starting a new contract with the same job I'd never stopped working at. I took the picture because my supervisor laid all the papers out on the table like this for me to sign. This is also the table I sat at to do my work.
By MeraBaid Kaur5 years ago in Journal
Why I'm Not An Outraged Black Mom
I carefully guard the information I receive from the media. I started doing this a few years before I had children, to improve emotional stability. After nearly 15 years it has become a habit. I highly recommend media detox, especially to parents.
By MeraBaid Kaur5 years ago in Families
