Margaret Ferreira
Bio
I am a half breed. Yup’ik Eskimo, and Caucasian. I grew up for the majority of my life in Alaska, and a large part In Chevak Alaska. Currently 32, with 4 kids. A sahm. Adhd, depression, anxiety, ctsd, and finding myself.
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Fake Love
Fuck. 10 years later. 10 years. 10 years it took me to realize that I fell in love with an idea. 10 years of abuse. Hate. Hurt. Lies. Cheating. Bruises. 10 years of waiting for my Husband. 10 years of loving my Husband. 10 years, 3 kids + mine = 4 kids and 10 years of Trauma Bond.
By Margaret Ferreiraabout a year ago in Families
Real Heartbreak
When you left, I was lost and confused. I had so many questions. I wanted so badly to turn back time and try harder to call you. I was so mad. So very mad. Not only mad at you but mad at myself. Because I was so far. Because I said mean things. Because I wasn't supportive enough. Above everything I was hurt. So hurt that I felt the pain in my heart, go up my throat and come out of my nose and mouth as cries of your name. I thought at first I must of been going crazy. I wanted to hear your voice so much, that I swear I could hear you calling me in silence. I thought I heard you trying to talk to me through a blaring radio. So as I drove the 370 miles to be with family and arrange your funeral, all I did was cry, and scream your name. I wanted to believe so bad, that if I called for you hard enough, you would appear next to me and tell me good bye.
By Margaret Ferreiraabout a year ago in Families
