I have lived for 18 years.
18 years that were only shadowed by the curse.
I just stayed in place, watching everyone move to reach their dreams in the sky.
I have tried, I am not lying.
However, my efforts were devoured by the curse.
Every step, I only think about other people's views.
I only think about how I can step over failure.
I don't want to fail.
If the reason must fail first to reach there, I don't want to.
So, when I am really at the point of failure, I will stop and find a shortcut.
It keeps repeating.
I know very well that it is not true, but my mind has worked together with my heart.
They really devour my actions.
Can I say that I hate them?
Do I have to get the curse?
Can I refuse?
Is this like a punishment?
Did I make a mistake to get punished?
Who is this punishment from?
How much longer?
Can I end it myself?
I beg you, someone, please stop this.
That's what I think every time I want to rest from the exhaustion that eats away at my mind and body.
People call it fear.
And I call it a curse.
Can I?
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This really hits home. We've all been in that place where we feel like we're stuck in a cycle of fear and failure. You mention constantly thinking about others' views and trying to avoid failure. I've been there too, always second-guessing myself. It's tough to break free. But you also ask some really good questions. Who is this punishment from? How can you end it? Maybe it's time to dig deeper and figure out what's really holding you back. Is there a specific fear or belief that's driving this curse? It's not easy, but you've got to find a way to take control. Don't let this cycle keep eating away at you. What do you think is the first step you could take to start breaking free?