My Nephews are my angels
Loss of oxygen platonic her life is ironic... A baby that looks like a porcelain doll with glass-eyes she is loving and kind, but in vast world she feels no one understands her. She feels so small and that her journey and that her vessel doesn’t make a difference at all.. She feels like she has no purpose in the world.. Her purpose is to be kind and leave this world a better place than which we left it in during a traumatized time .. At the end of the day I regain my life. I want to do things right to change the circumstances of corona has changed me for better.. I'm writing my amends to people in a letter I'm giving back to charity and realizing to count my blessings.. I could have it much worse and I have to be thankful for my family everyday... I should count all of my blessings and my health that's still intact.. I'm very blessed... With a broken head and much on her shoulders to giving to everyone I am trying it’s hard to say no, even harder to let go... Over weight by all my medicines but they make me stable even though i gain weight from them... Life is tough some days I wish I could be perfect and thin. She hides her scars behind make up and covers herself with tattoos and piercings to cover up her pain.. Her world is crashing down like rain hitting the ground at full speed not able to calm down. Broken from within
born with trauma to the head Sometimes I wish I was better off dead, but then I realize we all go through trauma in life even corona has affected us all.. I realize I am wanted and loved and people need me around.. My nephews want me here and I must change for them and not be scared... Flowers Spinning Words Swimming....Med cocktails in her system..Nobodies listening.. Corona 19 all alone and there is stress at home, but I am mending the patches and my relationships, because you only get one family and home so love your mother and father and be proud that you always have support around...Sometime my brain freezes and breaks down.. I get so upset and can’t calm down... Mom I'm sorry what I put you through.. I love you with all my heart ... I'm sorry there were times I tore our world apart.Mom is fighter a matriarch a protector but never lets her me be unconstrained and free as an adult.. I want to be treated independently I fight back tears I want the forbidden life, but mom tries to protect me from the unknown... I have a very great mom.. Who cares so much and gives me so much love... I wanna live my dreams after Corona continue helping people and inspiring others and showing people you can overcome mental illness and bran injury and overcome tragedies like Corona.. You just have to stay strong and know your are resilient and carry on.. You make a difference in this world by showing them you can overcome trauma and still stand proud.. If you can overcome insurmountable obstacles and find love and victory in your hardships. You will have beauty and lessons to teach others how to be resilient fight back and to win with victory . I want to be free and have a man to love and accept me but, I must first love myself for everything I am.. Not just hurt or pretend but truly love me again..Stop comparing yourself to everyone you are supposed to be yourself everybody’s journey on earth is different.. Your supposed to be happy with yourself and love and accept your mental health by beginning to heal and let go and truly love yourself and accept who you are it's always hard but don’t be scared let your life pour empathy out to those who need to be healed , through your life experience and existence you make a difference.
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