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Does it really start with the story itself or with the background but the art is in the work and the artist here is the almighty .We humans are just small gods when it comes to creation so the whole thing about telling us how your nine months journey was is you taking credit for someone else's work .Ask me about my nine months and I will say it was a whole new theory all together with a time frame...I was busy doing this and that ,taking photos to remember those blossom days in the future ,at this point the the human inside me was the least my concerns it was as if I was renting it some sort of shelter .At this point I knw you trying to jungle between whether or not I deserved to be a mum but don't be so quick to judge ,sincerely speaking you can't embrace what you have not worked for, so how could I be proud knowing that I was expecting my own …I was young ,stupid , confused and I obviously thought had found my mr.right.

First forward to the 6th day of January 2019 ,no one will ever prepare you for motherhood you can never guess how you will usher that bundle of joy into this world. The pain and the joy that it comes wrapped in is so confusing ,and that is where the berry gives out it's juice. Love is realized strength that is beyond human ability by this I mean divinity trusts humanity with life and at this moment a price must be paid ,everything has a price we say. This is the only moment in a woman's life when pride is shed off the body becomes the altar upon which love is the burnt sacrifice the ultimate price is really paid and of course a new bond realized ,mine was as unique and I had to forgive myself if from the beginning I thought this was some sort of party.

The son is the mom's last love they say, and moms are their sons first love this absolutely tested ,I thought had met the love of my life until I met him. My man, my friend and the only person who made me experience love at another dimension. Adrian Thomas almost prefect ,the joy was painful I could not comprehend it at that moment .I still wonder how these human beings make you quickly forget the pain you suffer ,every mom knows this ,soothing it must be to hold them up on your arms love that has no measure.

In all this you will always struggle with leaving this human beings behind and that's when I understood why I will always love him ,protect him and he makes me a casualty of love .Can you love someone this much .I remember not falling asleep at night looking at his lovely face …this kid replicated me in every way God had sent me a mirror down from heaven amazingly the boy version of me. No one will ever teach how to love you never realize when to love but when the time is right love finds it's root in us. Love language is abit different but for moms and their sons its on another level .The next few months were dramatic for me being a mom is no joke it never goes well for all ,I don't know about you but mine was what I could describe as the real change...the only funny part is that there is no going back .At this moment you realize you will never undo what is done. Love they say will conquer all.

Until now I thank God for our first meeting and for me you will never grow old you be my first forever....