What We Can Do After Our Writing Platform Flunked Us out of Our Sleeping Pattern

After a week of writing here on Vocal.media, it took longer for me to get up in bed and to sleep. Does this sound familiar to you?

I shared a bit about my tendency for impulsivity and how my thoughts are quite the runner when it comes to ideas.

I like what my Psychologist describes when someone who has bipolar disorder is manifesting the flight of ideas that comes with the condition.

He calls it, “Nagaanak ng ideas” in Tagalog or “Giving birth to ideas”. I had plenty of them and they like to multiply faster than my body could even comfortably handle.

On top of this bodily mechanism, I have with my neurons, medications are maintained to combat the further occurrence of hypomanic episodes. So, I could not imagine being off these meds, or how my mind would function. I must be heavily stoic in my endeavors to preserve harmony within if it’s the case I’m thinking of at the moment.

Creating a few stories on Medium and publishing them on the spot, makes up for a habit I soon developed consistently. Of course, I formed boundaries because I could not advance with writing if I had not taken this hobby as something of a part of me.

To take things on a serious note, I had to set a limit with writing. It was not sustainable if I would deprive myself of the sleep and health benefits I could get.

You have to realize that to become serious with writing, you have to stop writing.

It wasn’t a simple problem that only one person like me happened to have. I’ve been intentional with my media presence lately, and rightly so.

As it relates to social media or having an online presence, isn’t it ironic to think that clicking publish or clapping for someone is so easy to do? Sometimes you wonder what else is really true about yourself.

It has been the same ever since the World Wide Web entered our lives, yet humans have been divided on our perspectives about the Internet. To some people, it is a haven, a way to communicate with others at any given time, in any given moment. To other people, it’s a crime-infested dangerous zone, do not cross yellow tape.

I find myself riddled with mixed feelings about this kind of topic. I was the type of person a year ago who was cautious about using social media. But, as each day passes and I grow more dependent on this platform, it becomes more of a flora and fauna of dreams and possibilities for me.

It is safe to say that I’m caught in the middle of it all, swept by the tides of a new phase — a life transition or a graduation.

I wanted to bring a portion back of my cautiousness on social media. I can’t retrieve all of it back but I realized that for me to advance in a more respected state as a person, I should bring to mind to stop the flow of being too lenient behind the screens.

Respecting oneself and bringing that respect within you is a natural Bluetooth for others to respect you back. What happens is that people acknowledge the boundaries you set and understand that those are things that make you a person with the right to decide.

Being in the comfort of my place, typing away my thoughts and life story to anyone who might read, I was afraid not of people knowing about me but, of myself.

I tend to think that there always is a fine line between opposite things — like sane and insanity. Similarly, I talked about how our feelings had a huge say on this in a different story.

Losing the effortful control I have as a person and not having enough of it when I talk to real humans online could be problematic. It’s like being stripped away of one’s awareness and encouraged to only sustain minuscule attention spans, incapable of deciding on intangible and valuable ordeals.

By keeping our network ecosystem more sustainable, I encourage everyone to start taking short breaks and more effortful control of themselves aggressively behind their screens.

As people say for people themselves, if you want change to happen, start with yourself.