Is The World Ending? Maybe So…

I decided today I wanted to take some time to talk about my experience as an American citizen in the United States of America right now. I feel confused. The world that I thought I knew seems to have been shattered by the shocking realities of what is truly occurring, and it almost feels like I’m living through the plot of a movie now, not real life.

I remember when the solar eclipse happened in April of 2024, I felt a shift and change happening. It was hard to describe, but I felt like during the eclipse there was a strange energy. I look out at the world, and it was in this still, yellow haze. Shadows were casting underneath the trees that looked backwards from the way they would cast normally. The world simply looked ”upside down”. It was a very cool thing to experience. The thing is, that ideas of living in an “upside down world” didn’t go away after the eclipse. I noticed a shift, a change in the world that I wasn’t prepared for, that I didn’t expect, and that has shocked me to my very core to this day.

Come November, the election results were in, Donald Trump was elected president of the United States of America. This part didn’t really shock me, because I had felt a shift among the people, and I kind of felt that the election results were going to be in his favor. However, the transpiring events are what made me really believe that I think we are living in some not only historical times, but also possible the end of humanity as we know it. I remember in the time shortly before Trump was elected, there was a LOT of talk about drones on the East Coast.

I used to smoke cigarettes, and every evening that summer around the same time, I would sit outside on my porch steps and look up at the sky. Every single night, without fail, I saw the same drones, with red blinking lights, hovering over my apartment complex. The eerie thing about it was, they always went in the exact same pattern. Every night, I knew I would see two of them fly right over top of the roof of the building in front of mine, going in the same direction. I would see another drone that went the other direction, towards the adjacent building. This happened like clockwork, every single night. After I quit smoking, I didn’t sit outside at night, so I have not kept track of it since February when I quit smoking, but I can tell you, this is very real. I remember reading the news and hearing people from other states, including New Jersey, who had been observing the same thing. I remember the news was crazy and wild then, and it was making everyone anxious and scared. I remember the Biden administration kind of just brushing it off and saying that people fly personal drones all the time, and that there has been no solid evidence of these drones. I remember them saying most people were probably looking at planes. The thing is, I know what planes look like, and I know that’s NOT what I saw.

When Trump took office, people were still wondering about the drones, and his administration said they would look into it. They called upon the military to help identify the “UFO drones”, and deemed them “not a threat”. People weren’t satisfied with that answer though. We were still wondering why random but coordinated drones were monitoring our neighborhoods. It all felt very Orwellian in nature. That feeling like we were living in a George Orwell novel didn’t stop there, though.

I remember right before Trump was elected, he was shot. Someone tried to kill him. That did shock me, because I didn’t expect that to be something that would or could happen in the times we live in. I felt like history has shown us that those kinds of situations only bring more turmoil, unrest, and sadness upon the world. I am absolutely right about that, by the way. I remember seeing pictures of Trump, holding his hand up in the air while body guards surrounded him. There was a small streak of blood coming down from his ear.

Despite it all, he had this look upon his face like “I will still be America’s hero and fight for justice”. It looked very much like something out of the Marvel or DC comics world, to be honest. People took that image and made cups, blankets, posters, all sorts of things that they sold online in support of Trump. Trump’s administration themselves were the very people selling these keepsakes, as if to say “this is a historical moment in history”. I can’t remember if they did, but I know I thought to myself that this is the kind of thing they would probably put on one of the American coins at one point, as we have had famous moments in history shown in such a way on the backs of coins before.

Jump ahead to when Trump took office. I started keeping up more with politics and even became an active user on Elon Musk’s platform, X. I thought Elon’s idea to make X a place where citizen journalism and “finding out the truth” was a good cause, and I was interested to see how that would play out. At that point in time, myself, and most of the people I know, had actively started avoiding the news at all costs. We would not read articles by major news outlets, because they either instilled a sense of fear in us, or confused us. Some national headlines would say things in one way, while others would say the complete opposite, just with the headline itself. It became a confusing battle to figure out who was right and who was stretching the truth. It became tiresome. So, that’s when I started writing and spending more time on X for my news.

In the beginning, this was a good way to keep up with Trump’s first couple of weeks in office, as a lot of people were reporting about what was going on, as well as videos and the White House themselves live streaming on the platform to keep the citizens of America informed as to what was going on. This was during the time that Elon Musk was working in the White House with his team and DOGE, the “Department of Governmenot Efficiency”, an agency that was supposedly there to cut government spending to help the American people, and get the country out of this terrible debt we have been in for a long, long time. As time went on, the news wrote this article and that article, at first praising DOGE and their efforts, and then criticizing them. Elon Musk went from being this selfless dude on the autism spectrum who was like the “genius of the world”, to a selfish rich billionaire only concerned with himself. For me, it was hard to decipher which one of those things was the truth, and which was the lie. Elon made many appearances with the President, even with some of his many children, in the White House and at the very beginning events of this administration. It seemed that Trump was interested in Elon’s want to help the American people get out of debt, and also to help build on the technology boom that was about to happen right before our eyes, in just a few short months.

However, something unexpected happened. Elon got punched at the White House, although he claimed it was an injury from his son. Promptly after he got his black eye, the Trump administration let him go, giving him a golden “key” to the White House basically saying he was welcome back anytime, but in so many words it looked like and seemed like Trump was firing him, essentially. All sorts of rumors started flowing around X about Elon and claiming that he had a drug problem, he wasn’t sleeping, and that he was “crazy”. DOGE still continued there work after Elon left, but eventually, we heard less and less about DOGE. Members of DOGE started quitting until eventually, it just sounded to us like some weird fever dream and not something that actually happened. Elon Musk then switched his focus from government and world affairs to technology very abruptly, althouggo he still has made some posts about world events and still carries some influence there as well.

Something that happened shortly before Elon left the White House really shocked me and made me think that something strange was going on. One day, a man, supposedly who was in the military, drove his Cybertruck right into Trump tower, and a bomb went off, killing him instantly. After the event, pictures that seemed so surreal and dystopian showed a Cybertruck crashed into the front doors of the Trump tower, with orange flames. The letters of his name, TRUMP could be seen right above it. According to news sources, they discovered a note, a letter with the body of this man, warning people. It was a very generic and ominous warning, nothing specific, but still chilling and haunting nonetheless. A lot of people questioned them finding a letter in this car considering it was blown up. (How would a piece of paper survive in that burning Cybertruck?) Something felt very off about it, and something still feels very off about that situation to this day.

As time went on, I continued posting on X, but I noticed a shift happening. So many accounts, even accounts like a generic account that is supposed to post about autism and stuff like that, started posting politically. They sided with Trump and Elon Musk, mostly. People fed into that and gave their support willingly, I saw more people defending Elon’s actions even when he said or did odd things, out of the idea that this man, Elon Musk, was all for helping humanity. People started putting him up on a pedastal, worshipping him. I started getting lots of bots and scammers claiming to be Elon Musk or someone that worked for him trying to get in touch with me because the “liked my posts”. (Of course I knew they were just petty internet criminals). A lot of people, especially elderly people on the platform that didn‘t know better, were scammed out of their own money.

The big AI shift began to happen. Elon puts all of his focus into Grok, which recieves mixed reviews because of the whole ”Ani” bot thing, and the weird focus on sex and sexualizing women that happened on the platform. I saw it almost every single day, and it was mostly women, posting images they made from Grok, of half naked women with big boobs gushing out of their shirts. Then, I saw real women, actually start taking more pictures where they were so obviously showing their cleavage and looking for attention. Women’s posted would be noticed and shared by Elon Musk, and then a week later, they would be posting about things like “abolishing the fed” in combination with a sexy photo of them. I thought it was very odd and bizarre. Many women started doting on Elon, even being very flirtatious in the comments. At one point, before the Ani debacle, I actually applied to work for X, because I was interested in getting into the AI field, and I thought working for xAI would be a dream come true. I wrote an amazing cover letter and submitted my resume, and they actually got back to me and wanted me to proceed with the interview process. First, I had to take a test. Unfortunately, I guess I didn’t score high enough on the test, because they gave me a generic rejection email after that, but it also left room to encourage me to apply again in the future, so I wasn’t super upset. It actually spurred me to go ahead and take some Google AI classes, and I am currently working on getting Professional Certificates in AI.

Between then and now, I had been on again off again with keeping up with the news. I saw and read about the news about the mass deportations. I heard the stories about “Alligator Alcatraz” which was thankfully shut down, because to me, that sounded really strange. Walmarts and other stores were less crowded, and about half the neighbors in my building suddenly vanished. The immigration enforcement was happening right before my eyes. I had to understand that in little bits, because it was hard to constantly be reading about that every day, especially the people who said they were US citizens mistakenly taken into custody because ICE officers assumed they were immigrants by the way they looked. It did actually happened to a few people that I know of.

Protests started happening around the country, the “no kings“ movement began. The conservative side claimed these were old people who were upset that their social security was running out, while people on the left claimed that we were living in some kind of modern dystopian World War 2 situation. I myself could not really understand either side, so I felt caught in the middle. This was how I was for a long while. I kept thinking every day “this stuff is all so weird, I feel like I really am livino in a science fiction story”.

The Epstein thing happened, and it divided a lot of the conservatives, some extremely disappointed with how quickly it was swept under the rug instead of addressed, like they had promised. A lot of people also were NOT suprised by that, saying, “well, politicians always lie”. I could see both sides, I was disappointed but also not surprised. Fast forward to the most recent news; Charlie Kirk is at an event having a debate with the public about gun control in Utah, when he is all of a sudden shot.

We were all in a panic, reading the news, hoping that he would make a recovery and be able to tell his story. I remember seeing the video and it was so strange, his last words there was asking a question, as they were talking about the gun issue, the last two words he spoke were “gun violence”. Then, in the video, I see what looks like a man behind him make this gesture, and boom, Charlie is shot. The reaction to this event shocked me to my core. People flooded social media, dancing, celebrating, laughing about a man being shot just for having a friendly political debate on a college campus. People on the left side claimed that people on the right side weren’t upset enough about the other shootings that had happened that week, calling attention to the mass shootings that had taken place earlier that week. A Ukrainian woman earlier that week had also been murdered on a bus right in front of people, and that video had continued to circulate everywhere. Both videos, the one of the girl and the one of Charlie, were so graphic. I never thought I would see the day where these videos would be so openly floating around social media like they were. I felt that was dangerous for young people. I saw videos recently of young people talking about how desensitized they were to violence because of these things, and that made me incredibly sad, angry, and confused.

Additionally, I saw people who I thought were just nice, regular folks, start making the most vile and repulsive videos filled with anger and hate, celebrating a man’s death. I thought it was awful. I myself have spent a lot of time choosing not to engage in taking sides in politics, but I can say and call out when something is odd or strange, 0r when something shocks me. I thought it was completely terrible and disrespectful how a lot of people reacted to his death. It really made me question the world we are living in, and it still does.

Jump ahead to the last few days, and now, I’m seeing a lot of conservatives claiming that the killing of this man was a conspiracy, and that our own government and the Trump administration are lying to us. It has all been so surreal, to be honest. When I saw people reacting with so much joy about a man’s death, I went back to Jesus. I went back to God. I was so shocked at how evil and strange the world had become. Now, I hear a lot of people talking about the end times and how we might very well be at the end of the world as we know it. I certainly hope not, but I can’t shake the ominous and frightened feeling I have gotten about everything in this country since that solar eclipse in April of 2024. Maybe it was a sign of something coming. All I know, is I am going to make right with my Lord and hope that I will be saved. Whatever happens, I want to repent and feel free from my sins. I think the world is in need of a lot of saving now, and people don’t know what to do about it. The world has become so heartless, cruel, and evil. My hope is for this to turn around soon, but I can’t deny how weird all of these things in conjunction with one another seem.

Could it be we are living in the end times? Could it be that we are living in a dystopian society akin to 1984?

I guess only time will tell at this point, and I’ll keep praying for a resolution, for an end to these terrible things.