Crying About Problems In The World

It hurts me seeing and reading all the news about two students getting attacked about nothing but driving in a car and getting stuck into traffic, and saying hello to someone they know, just by police officers.

It hurts be seeing people attacked where there is no reason for, just by police officers.

It hurts me that people will be killed for just nothing, just by police officers.

I'm crying about these problems, literally. It hurts in my stomach what is going on in this world at the moment. I just got literally an outburst of a crying moment.

I just read more news, Twitter messages and all other news about this topic, to understand - as a half-blood Dutch and half-blood Indonesian, living in The Netherlands - what is going on in the world at the moment. I really don't understand what is happening, but what I understand is that racism is not tolerable.

I really don't understand why people are doing this. Why on earth do we belittle people from other cultures?! How and why?

Just tell me, why are people doing that? To feel themselves better? I don't understand that. But can we please change that?

Can we please change for the sake of others? I mean, what do we reach something with that behavior?

I don't think we reach something with that behavior!

We only go back with this behavior. It is not that you are moving forward with this behavior, but you belittle someone to feel better yourself or to feel better in the group you belong to!

That behavior is not tolerable.

I believe when you help one another, no matter what color, you feel much better. Only for helping one another.

That is how you feel better. That is how we should act in the first place.

But these problems gave me an outburst of a crying momentum. I could not sleep the last few weeks and it really hurts me so much, in my stomach, in my chest, in my head. It is not worth living like this, for nobody.

So, please, people, stop being a jerk and get racism out of your system. That would be a lot of work, but it should be worth it too.

Thinking, reading, and crying takes so much energy from within me. But I believe I have to. I have to, to be informed what is going on, to inform myself why we all need to take action. And to inform myself about the problems I need to take action for. I don't know how I am going to do that. Whatever my road is, I will do it.

How we have to take action is, of course, different for everyone, but is always starts with yourself. I start with reading about the topic racism.

What does it mean? What problems are there in the world? What are the actions we should take as a human being? What are the stories from black people? And I have many more questions to ask which I want to get answered.

I was part of it too, although I feel with them a lot and when hearing about the situations I started crying about what is going on right now. Does that make sense? I don't know, but I feel the injustice done to others a lot. I'm just a sensitive woman. I feel a lot.

Taking small steps each time, otherwise, it will be overwhelming me too much. But I know for sure that I am taking the right steps to be more aware of the injustice.