That is ok.

My names Charlotte.

I’m 25.

I have borderline personality disorder, clinical depression, generalised anxiety disorder, complex ptsd, postnatal depression & I used to have an eating disorder & self harm which I handle a lot better now.

As-well as my mental health issues I have physical issues that take its toll on my mental health but we will get into that another time as well as some other personal things that aren’t for sharing right now.

I’ve struggled with my mental health for as long as I can remember, I think the first time I knew I wanted to die was when I was around maybe 6-7 years old.

Over the years, it’s got worse & it’s got better, due to experiences & it’s been a rollercoaster that’s for sure. I think I’ve lost count of times I’ve attempted to take my own life & the amount of professionals I’ve spoke to.

It’s took me a long while to accept.. no accept isn’t the right word. Understand, that I have these issues & some days are going to be worse than others.

Some days I’ll spend more time crying and dissociating than smiling, but that’s okay.

Some days will be constant days of flashbacks, self loathing and shame.

Some days will be happy songs & games with Jace and full of love and joy with the people around me.

Some days will be the most difficult and I will feel no love for anyone.

But that is okay.

I’ve learnt over the years, it is okay to not be okay.

I like to remember that most days I am trying my hardest to do better and be a better version of me. My scars are there for a reminder of the battles I have faced and that no matter what life throws at me, I’m pretty sure I can handle it like a rockstar.

The theme for mental health awareness is kindness. Kindness to others and most importantly kindness to yourself.

Love starts from within, and to be kind to yourself is in my opinion the most important. However like a lot of people I’m still learning to do that & being kind to others is a lot easier.

How can you help? You never know what others are going through, that one comment you made?

“You look nice today”

“I love your outfit”

“Thinking of you”

“I’m here”

“You can talk to me”

“Are you ok?”

They could honestly mean the world to someone. Especially with the world we are living in at the moment, everything is escalated, even for people who have never faced mental health before.

We have to be there for each other & be each other’s biggest fan. Not just now, but always.