Sobriety.

So yesterday I hit 70 days sober. I am very proud and feel amazing. I feel great physically and mentally more each day I wake up. If you know you know. My anxiety and depression has eased and calmed down, somedays I feel "normal". I've struggled for years and with COVID this year my drinking became out of control. I'm not ashamed of it but not proud, and hopefully I'm able to help someone someday that has gone throught the same situation. It was to where I wouldn't even eat or drink water in the morning I would just start drinking. Some days more and heavier than others. I have gone through a crazy amount of life events in the past year which lead up to the drinking I'm talking about. Personal events that I'd rather not mention because it's too painful to remember them but I got through it.My last night of drinking though I fell on my face and fractured my nose, that was a scary wake up call. I'm still here, healthy and happy. I thank God, the universe and my willpower. I honestly don't know what would happen if I had continued and it's not something I would want to know either. My partner, family and friends have been supportive big time. I did lose a couple friends but clearly they were not friends but 'drinking buddies' and I'm totally fine with that. I don't need negative people in my life when I want nothing but positivity. The new path I'm on is super exciting and has so many new surprises and doors opening. Unexplainable feeling. It's almost as if I feel everything is perfect! I have everything I ever wanted in life and that's what's a bit scary because not many people can say that or will recieve that. I never want to be that person again now that I've escaped. I was such a sad, lost and angry person. I wanted to give up but I knew there was more to life. More happiness and freedom just waiting for me to find it. I had to be strong. I am strong. You really have to want it in order to succeed. I find for me anyway that's the only way it works. I love the fact that I inspire others, puts a smile on my face. I have people who inspire me, it's a great circle. Being sober is something I'll forever be proud of. Now I am able to focus on the good things, all the things that were there the whole time. Little things that I forgot I liked. Painting, puzzles, word searches, taking pictures, etc. Waking up knowing what I did last night is a plus too. Not hurting people with words, not hurting myself, or losing touch with family. I promise myself I will never let that happen. It's not always easy but I got this. And if this is something familiar to you then I'm cheering you on 100 percent. Don't let yourself fall.