Running free

Waking up to the smell of a burning house, as I woke up I didn’t know where I was, I was neither dreaming nor awake. I was here again trapped in my own dream but it was different, this time I didn’t have dream phases I was just stick here, why can’t he just leave me alone. I have visited every house.. the house of God, the shaman, the so called online tarot and finally the hospital.

In 2002, I just finished my 8th grade, super excited for high school, when I payed in my bed suddenly I couldn’t move, I couldn’t shout or scream. And then he walked past me, he wore a black cloak and as he walked close to me I could tell it was real. He stood and said nothing, I needed to run but only if I could, I could feel the presence of my surrounding bit my brain froze. Then he left and suddenly I gained myself.

All I could think of is run, I rolled up with my tiny feet and ran for my mums room and then I narrated everything to her, she laughed but wouldn’t believe me, she took me to my room and told me how I had an imaginative mind and should pray before I sleep. Well her words weren’t really helping and all I could hope is she lays with me in bed.

He was horrifying and could see through me, did a thief come into the house, oh my goodness. He could come back now but wait why can’t I move … why is there a shadow staring at me. I began to pray to God, only he could save me right now. As I looked through the window it was morning, someone should come into the room and see him please, I prayed he doesn’t hurt my family… who is he and why does he keep staring at me, I am supposed to get ready for my first day in high school and no one is waking me up. All I could tell in my head was mummy please come in here, save me from this monster. I tried to summon the courage and open my mouth “who are you” I asked struggling and I was shock I could speak cause I felt all hope was lost, I began to scream help and he walked close to me and kept staring me deep in the eye. I could swear he had no face he was a shadow, could I be my imagination, or from a movie I have seen. Finally he turned and left through the window. I felt a weight left me and I jumped off the bed to my dad.

Daddy there was someone in my room, that’s all I could remember and when I opened my eyes I was seated in class, it was y first day of school and there was so many new faces, they all stared at me as I began to scream to them. Where’s mummy and daddy. They all laughed at me and said she’s at it again. And I was asked to kneel till the end of school outside in the blazing sun. Why don’t I remember where I was today, and how comes I am suddenl In school.

Hey my name is lillie, one of my class mate walked towards me and introduced herself, and before I could introduce myself she said we all know you… you gave quite and impression! I couldn’t understand what she meant and she asked me why I walked so majestically earlier and when asked my name I would only say I am who I am.

What does that that even mean I could care less, little did I know that this incident would come to affect me in the future.