Meditative Art

After a series of unfortunate events, I had a rapid spiritual awakening forced upon me back in the fall of 2020. I didn’t realize what was happening to me, and went through the whole fuckin’ thing by myself which resulted in me losing all my friends due to scaring the shit out of them, dropped 15 pounds from anorexia, got escorted to the psych ward where I would have been diagnosed with all kinds of fancy psychosis labels had I gone (I chose not to), and I got exiled from my family for a hot second. I trained wrecked my entire life in roughly three months in every single aspect of my life. Quit my job, maxed out all my credit cards, my love life got incinerated, the whole nine. I call it my mental health holiday. It all sounds absolutely terrible, and it was half magical and half wretched at the same time. The wretched part was having every single trauma I’ve ever suffered come roaring to the surface which basically was like a mirror shattering event for me. It felt like I went through all kinds of fun deaths, had a ton of out of body experiences, and I blasted open all of my chakras which had my ass hallucinating and searching through every crack and crevice trying to find the answer to the meaning of life. FYI: I highly recommend following instructions and unblocking the root chakra first and not your third eye and crown chakras. Trust me. The ground is your friend. I learned this after becoming one with the clouds for an extended period of time. It took a long time to balance them all (there’s 7 chakras), and I’m honestly still working at it since I have to pick up all of those broken pieces, and put them back together now that I’ve come back down to the land of the living. Now, the good stuff that came from this was the kundalini awakening that I unknowingly activated which caused me to get in touch with my higher self and allow my light body to turn on. It turned me into an overnight artist amongst other things. It really feels like all the muses came to grace me with gifts. I suddenly began dancing with absolute grace and rhythm when I’ve always been on the clumsy side, I could sing better, and I started writing poetry when I’ve never been a poet in my life. But drawing is where I seem to be interested in the most. I could barely draw a goddamn stick figure before my crown chakra got blown up. I noticed I draw half of things, in an extremely abstract format, and everybody sees something different in my drawings. For a little while there I was asking people what they saw, and whatever answer I’d get I would look up the spiritual meaning behind it. Made for a pretty cool psychological game that gave others insight to themselves if they were willing to listen to the message. When I draw, I put on meditative music and my hand just flows, I never think, my mind genuinely goes blank. I quite literally become absolutely silent within, and it’s the most cathartic, peaceful thing I’ve ever gifted myself with. I started with crayons, moved up to colored pens, and now I’m onto watercolor. I never draw the same thing, but I feel like I draw a lot of the same symbols in different sequences. I got curious one day, and started mirroring my drawings to each other, and I noticed something pretty interesting. They not only make a whole different picture when the other half is there, but when I merge them together in different aspects, the picture keeps changing. Sometimes I feel like I have a little alien inside me, and I get reminded of movies like Men In Black, Independence Day, and Transformers. I know I’m drawing and utilizing the concept of universal oneness which is definitely something I think everybody should look into. The world would be a lot kinder of a place if people understood just how connected we are to everything and everyone we come into contact with. My curiosity had me digging into ancient cultures because when I opened up myself to spirit, I was extremely drawn to look into the past, and I noticed patterns everywhere. History repeats itself. People repeat patterns. Everything is just one big giant loop. And everything has a meaning. Literally everything, which can honestly be a very overwhelming concept. Anyways, after tons of research in all kinds of different directions, I found that spirituality helps with mental health, and in my opinion, is deeply linked with mental health disorders to begin with. The one thing that truly saved me, and brought out a world of creativity hidden inside me, is meditation. I put on the Solfeggio frequencies, disconnect from reality, and I let the universe move me. It’s something I recommend others should try too. The key is to trust your body to make something uniquely yours, and it will be beautiful if you don’t resist or let your ego interject. Even if you’re not drawing, just sleeping to the solfeggio frequencies helps you lighten your energetic load, and it eases anxiety and stress. Meditation gets you into the state of flow, and that right there is where magic lies. Below are a couple more of my drawings and some of the different aspects that go with each one. And if you see something, especially if it’s a repeating something that you see multiple times as you look through them, you should look up the meaning behind it. Could be your subconscious trying to tell you something 😉