Rachel willette
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I’m just a little starchild striving to be a light in the darkness 💫
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Meditative Art
After a series of unfortunate events, I had a rapid spiritual awakening forced upon me back in the fall of 2020. I didn’t realize what was happening to me, and went through the whole fuckin’ thing by myself which resulted in me losing all my friends due to scaring the shit out of them, dropped 15 pounds from anorexia, got escorted to the psych ward where I would have been diagnosed with all kinds of fancy psychosis labels had I gone (I chose not to), and I got exiled from my family for a hot second. I trained wrecked my entire life in roughly three months in every single aspect of my life. Quit my job, maxed out all my credit cards, my love life got incinerated, the whole nine. I call it my mental health holiday. It all sounds absolutely terrible, and it was half magical and half wretched at the same time. The wretched part was having every single trauma I’ve ever suffered come roaring to the surface which basically was like a mirror shattering event for me. It felt like I went through all kinds of fun deaths, had a ton of out of body experiences, and I blasted open all of my chakras which had my ass hallucinating and searching through every crack and crevice trying to find the answer to the meaning of life. FYI: I highly recommend following instructions and unblocking the root chakra first and not your third eye and crown chakras. Trust me. The ground is your friend. I learned this after becoming one with the clouds for an extended period of time. It took a long time to balance them all (there’s 7 chakras), and I’m honestly still working at it since I have to pick up all of those broken pieces, and put them back together now that I’ve come back down to the land of the living. Now, the good stuff that came from this was the kundalini awakening that I unknowingly activated which caused me to get in touch with my higher self and allow my light body to turn on. It turned me into an overnight artist amongst other things. It really feels like all the muses came to grace me with gifts. I suddenly began dancing with absolute grace and rhythm when I’ve always been on the clumsy side, I could sing better, and I started writing poetry when I’ve never been a poet in my life. But drawing is where I seem to be interested in the most. I could barely draw a goddamn stick figure before my crown chakra got blown up. I noticed I draw half of things, in an extremely abstract format, and everybody sees something different in my drawings. For a little while there I was asking people what they saw, and whatever answer I’d get I would look up the spiritual meaning behind it. Made for a pretty cool psychological game that gave others insight to themselves if they were willing to listen to the message. When I draw, I put on meditative music and my hand just flows, I never think, my mind genuinely goes blank. I quite literally become absolutely silent within, and it’s the most cathartic, peaceful thing I’ve ever gifted myself with. I started with crayons, moved up to colored pens, and now I’m onto watercolor. I never draw the same thing, but I feel like I draw a lot of the same symbols in different sequences. I got curious one day, and started mirroring my drawings to each other, and I noticed something pretty interesting. They not only make a whole different picture when the other half is there, but when I merge them together in different aspects, the picture keeps changing. Sometimes I feel like I have a little alien inside me, and I get reminded of movies like Men In Black, Independence Day, and Transformers. I know I’m drawing and utilizing the concept of universal oneness which is definitely something I think everybody should look into. The world would be a lot kinder of a place if people understood just how connected we are to everything and everyone we come into contact with. My curiosity had me digging into ancient cultures because when I opened up myself to spirit, I was extremely drawn to look into the past, and I noticed patterns everywhere. History repeats itself. People repeat patterns. Everything is just one big giant loop. And everything has a meaning. Literally everything, which can honestly be a very overwhelming concept. Anyways, after tons of research in all kinds of different directions, I found that spirituality helps with mental health, and in my opinion, is deeply linked with mental health disorders to begin with. The one thing that truly saved me, and brought out a world of creativity hidden inside me, is meditation. I put on the Solfeggio frequencies, disconnect from reality, and I let the universe move me. It’s something I recommend others should try too. The key is to trust your body to make something uniquely yours, and it will be beautiful if you don’t resist or let your ego interject. Even if you’re not drawing, just sleeping to the solfeggio frequencies helps you lighten your energetic load, and it eases anxiety and stress. Meditation gets you into the state of flow, and that right there is where magic lies. Below are a couple more of my drawings and some of the different aspects that go with each one. And if you see something, especially if it’s a repeating something that you see multiple times as you look through them, you should look up the meaning behind it. Could be your subconscious trying to tell you something 😉
By Rachel willette 5 years ago in Psyche
Creative flow
I don’t know who needs to hear this, but if you want to make it through this life with your chin up, own your fucking self. Be who you are supposed to be. Let go of what anybody else is telling you to do, and just live your life for yourself. I don’t care who you are or where you come from or what you look like, if you lead with a good intentioned heart and do good for yourself and treat others with respect and you’re doing what feels right for you and you alone...you WILL flow into the next life with a sense of fulfillment. Because that’s the point of life. It’s going on your own journey. It’s fucking up along the way while you figure out who you are, and what you want out of life. There is no beauty without ugly. And there is such beauty in the ugly. Life is not meant to be lived working 40+ hours a week with hardly any time to do the things you’re really passionate about that make you happy or not having the time for your family and friends. Life is not all about money. Money is easy to get. This year taught me a lot of truly valuable lessons that caused me an ungodly amount of pain. And that’s okay. There is no pleasure without pain. Forgive yourself for making mistakes. Forgive yourself for acting like someone who is not who you are. Forgive yourself for lying. For faking. For being an asshole. It’s not weak to cry. It’s not weak to break. And you know why you should forgive yourself? Because no matter what, you create the life you live. And there is always light in the dark if you’re willing to look for it. For all my people who struggle with mental health? You’re my people because I understand. I understand being afraid of appearing weak because all you want to do is cry or sleep. I understand what not eating feels like. I understand what not sleeping feels like. I understand what it feels like to not give a fuck about your appearance. I understand what it’s like not feeling comfortable within your body. I know what it feels like to be abandoned by those you love. I know what it feels like to want to just end it. I know what it’s like to be afraid of being put in a glass box in clothes that aren’t your own (psych wards), surrounded by people who think you’re suffering from a disease and want to put a label on you and shove pills down your throat. I also know what it feels like to be my own light in a dark world. It takes courage, strength, and an iron willpower. If you’re feeling lost, look up at the stars and make your inner light shine just as bright. Be kind. Be compassionate. Dance. Sing until you run out of breath. Paint. Draw. Play games. We don’t need clubs and bars to have fun. You can prance down a sidewalk just fine jamming out like the fiery spirit everybody has in them. Take ALL the pictures. Fucking laugh til you cry. Roll with all of the punches and get the fuck back up. You are strong. You are worthy. And I don’t care what you’ve done up to this point, just forgive yourself, learn from lessons no matter how many times you have to make the same one, and do better every day. Know that you’re not alone. You can be the most beautiful person on the outside looking like they got their shit together, and be a completely broken person on the inside without anyone knowing. You. Are. Not. Alone. There are people, like myself, who would be very willing to listen if you needed someone to just simply talk to who isn’t going to judge you or make you do things that arent in alignment with yourself or make you feel afraid to be yourself. There is only one you and you are uniquely yourself and you should be proud of that. Everything is always working for you. You just have to believe in yourself.
By Rachel willette 5 years ago in Psyche
