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Growing Up Suicidal and How It Has Affected Me Today
Pictured above is me at my happiest. Who wouldn't be happy to pet goats at the zoo? Even as an adult, I thoroughly enjoyed the experience. That whole day was a nice escape. You probably can't tell, but I was battling some really serious mental issues at this time. And I say you probably can't tell because of the look of satisfaction on my face with my new goat friend.
By Jonathan Miciano7 years ago in Psyche
Cutting Through Chaos
I've always been a planner. I like knowing what I'm going to do in a given day, who I'm going to hang out with, where I'll be going, if I need to spend any money. One thing I've never been able to plan is self harm. It comes out of nowhere. I don't fit it into my schedule. I don't expect to do it any given day. I don't have specific days or times when I do it. It just happens. And that's what a lot of people don't understand.
By Laura Bruns7 years ago in Psyche
Journal (May 18 - June 7, 2017)
May 18, 2017 Hello everyone, So the main topic I think I want to talk about today is the past. There are many things that happen in someone past. It can be good or bad. People in the 20th century judge others now by how they look, most of the time. There are some who don't, but they are the special ones. Me, I never judge someone by their look. I get to know them.
By Jasmin Eddy7 years ago in Psyche
Four Steps to Pulling Yourself out of a Relapse
Relapse is a completely normal part of recovery. Everyone has bumps in the road and moments where they slip back into behaviors that they’re trying so hard to stop. Some relapses may seem harder or last longer than others but any relapse, no matter how small, can be detrimental to recovery if you can’t pull yourself out of it. It’s also extremely important that you begin correcting those behaviors as soon as you notice you’re engaging in them again, because the longer a relapse goes on, the harder it is to pull yourself out of it. Sadly, there’s no set list of things to do that are guaranteed to pull you out of a relapse but here are four things I’ve noticed helped me and can be tailored to fit how you personally need help restarting your recovery.
By Mina LeAnn7 years ago in Psyche
The Worst Summer
The summer that I will never forget started with the stupidest mistake. As a young girl at the age of 13, I was just like any other girl. I had secrets that any girl this age would have, so I decided to write about them in a diary on the computer. During this time, we had the floppy disc, so I had a pink one, and I used this as my diary. Every night before I went to bed I would use this to vent about school and anything else that I was going through. All the things I was going through included having a boring summer, wanting to talk to my crush, and how I didn't want to live with my abusive stepfather. I wrote about how I didn't like being abused and molested and how I didn't want to be mean to my mom. My stepfather didn't like us to talk to our mother or spend time with her at all so if we did we were in trouble. Anyways, I can remember this day like it was yesterday I was sitting on the computer and I decided it was getting late and I needed to take a shower, so I got up and did so. Little did I know I left my floppy disc in the computer and that my stepfather was going to take advantage and read it. Honestly, I believe that a day or so went by before I realized that I lost my diary, the day I was reminded was when my stepfather called me into my room and told me to close the door. When he said close the door you knew that one or two things was going to happen, one I was about to be molested etc. or two I was about to get one of the worst beatings of my life. I remember being questioned for hours that night about which boys I liked and if I loved my mom or if I loved him. My sisters were also questioned as well but then he finally brought up the floppy disc and that’s when I knew why all these things were happening. That night I was in for one of the worst summers of my life. That night my stepfather introduced a new kind of punishment, he told me to go outside and just stand there. I had no shoes on or anything and I was just told to stand there. This was one of the first times I literally watched the sky turn from night to day. I was still questioned a million times and I was beaten by his fist and told that from that point forward I was in another boat. For him this meant that I was no longer his family and I was more like an enemy because I wrote about in my diary. He couldn’t stand the thought of someone being “against him.” Anyway, long story short my summer was filled with unlikable beatings. I was beaten naked with a belt almost every day. I was raped, and I was once tied to the post of parent’s bed and beaten naked. One day I thought I could get a break from the pain so I screamed that I had to use the bathroom thinking, “Ok he’ll stop beating me.” Nope! That didn’t happen. Instead, he came in the bathroom and beat me while I was sitting on the toilet, and then, after, he proceeded to tie me back up to the bed and gagged me with a sock so my little brother wouldn’t hear me in the room. It seemed like this summer all he had was time and I felt like it was never going to end. I wasn’t allowed to watch TV, eat, or talk to anyone, I just had to sit there until night time came and I was sent outside because my stepfather “couldn’t stand the thought of me.” This summer was filled with even more unthinkable things, but I can’t even continue typing because the pain is coming back……
By Maelyn Jeffers7 years ago in Psyche
Breaking Free Pt. 3
Last night (Monday night because when I went to try and post this I could not because Vocal was under maintenance) I got trapped in my own negativity, and what started my downward spiral of a thought process was how my mother wrote to me in a poem about how everything I was telling people after they kicked me out was a lie.
By Iiliana Williams7 years ago in Psyche
How to Heal. Top Story - September 2018.
What happens when everything in your life seems to be going great, and then in the blink of an eye, you lose everything. And I truly mean, everything. Your entire world is turned upside down and shaken so thoroughly it will never be the same.
By River Garman7 years ago in Psyche
